Indescribable, uncontainable, all powerful...God

one day...

2010-09-05T13:24:00.000+10:00

when I can possibly earn enough money to give my mum something like this for her birthday.....
just a little something

my mum is just ..... the most dedicated person i've ever seen.
in her work, in loving her children, in making us the best people we can be, and in praying...
strong-hearted and sentimental but yet, always keeping her emotions to herself.
love it when she smiles and laughs. it elicits an instant joy in me when my mum is happy.

My dad?
where can i even begin. he is so similar yet distinctly different to my mother.
He's the one who speaks out loud his feelings; the words that my mother doesn't say yet "tells" us in her own way. like my mum, he diligent prays.
He IS definitely the MOST optimistic and generous person that i know. SERIOUSLY.

i can never find the RIGHT words to say in any card that i've made them...
2010's card is still not made yet and i have to struggle to express indescribable gratitude to my parents.
Though we are just a speck in God's unbelievably huge universe, without Him, my parents, my family, and my friends, i wouldn't even be the speck i am today...

Love is the ONLY best thing I can give. better do THAT well.

wars, terminal illness, car accident, endless list....

2010-06-14T14:29:00.000+10:00

7 days...

2010-06-13T21:43:00.001+10:00

~Matthew 4:1-11~

~James 1:13~

When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone;

~Proverbs 29:23~

A man's pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor.

~1 Corinthians 10:13~

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

when the time comes...

2010-06-11T16:46:00.000+10:00

... it sucks when you fail to put up your best even if you have all the goods in mind.

There is always next time.

But there comes a time when you're out of time.

Tick tock tick tock*

Time seems to be a recurring theme, doesn't it...And yet, there's so little of it.

2010-06-06T22:58:00.000+10:00

You're mad, bonkers, off your head! But I'll tell you a secret:

.......All the best people are ;)

Do you remember the time...

2010-06-03T21:56:00.000+10:00

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date:

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade

Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;

Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou growest:

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you....

2010-05-30T19:24:00.000+10:00

Stars shining bright above you;
Night breezes seem to whisper – love you?
Birds singing in the sycamore tree.
Dream a little dream of me.

Say nighty-night and kiss me;
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
While I'm alone, blue as can be,
Dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you..
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you.
But in your dreams, whatever they be,
Dream a little dream of me

I'd love to go to prison now....

2010-05-09T22:24:00.000+10:00

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1986002,00.html?xid=newsletter-daily

Flabbergasted was my first reaction....

sweet tooth..........

2010-04-19T23:25:00.000+10:00

Masterchef is so going to make me fat.....
salivating when it hit the thai grilled prawns and then this.....

drop dead gorgeous - crusty on the outside, goey and marshmellowy on the inside, not forgetting those passionfruit pips - the best part!

too good to resist should i be offered one....

14 and a half hrs to go.....

2010-04-17T01:31:00.000+10:00

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will
counsel you and watch over you."
- Psalm 32:8

"Whosoever trusteth in the Lord,
happy is he."
- Proverbs 16:20

-

2010-04-15T08:17:00.002+10:00

lost like 95% of my research 1 min after waking up.....

0.o

Hate being Tiffany right now.......

2010-04-15T00:25:00.000+10:00

10 mins evolved to 1 hr and 15 mins of helping some first year with his essay....

she borrowed her friend a very important book (instead of asking it back from her, it became an overnight loan) which tiff needs for this assignment due on Sat that she's barely written...

sitting here thinking how stupid tiff is....

what the crap IS she doing...

Lost in a dream..

2010-04-11T21:48:00.004+10:00

<3 this version

What about Japanese men.........

2010-04-10T12:40:00.007+10:00

Very interesting...watched this tv report just then....
http://www.abc.net.au/7.30/content/2010/s2864558.htm

My summary.....

The masculinity of Japanese men has ~~degraded~~ evolved from the dignified kamikaze-rather-die-than-surrender extremity to a high maintenance, self-indulgent one.....

Current biodata of a typical Japanese male:
- Spoiling themselves
- No interest in relationships, only materialistic and career-driven goals
(A recent survey found that one third of Japanese men aged between 20 and 34 had never even had a girlfriend, because most weren't even interested)
- <3s things like strawberry tea, manicures, going to the saloon, sweets...Mens bras - a lucrative industry...(who would've thought...)"[seller talking about client] when he wears the bra, he said he feels calm..""Herbivorous" men vs. "Carnivorous" womenType "japanese men" on Google and see what comes up..........

Flabbergasted...

inspired or just plain lazy/procrastinator

2010-04-07T21:48:00.002+10:00

You can obviously tell which is from the BBQ i had with some cousins and the other that i've kinda made just 2 hrs ago just so i can NOT do work...sigh...

Lingering on my tongue....
the taste of the sashimi dipped in soy and wasabi....the fresh salad louis made rich in tomatoes,capsicum, bacon strips, sauteed mushrooms, lemon juice, rocket & lettuce leaves and lovely halves of hard-boiled egg to complete it....the salty buttered, crisp corn on the cob....the beautifully grilled fresh prawns...the bulgogi flavoured beef strips...finale - ing with Charmaines crunchy-on-the-outside-and-fudgy-in-its-centre brownies with cookies & cream ice cream...

what a bbq
ANYWAY, mine tasted good....? hmm....not often do i cook which is an accomplishment in itself!

Medium rare lamb cutlets - which were tenderized and flavoured in the garlic, olive oil and rosemary marinade - on top of a bed of wilted symphony of spinach es...

topped off with my mum's kick-arse fresh chilli paste which i stirred into a tangy mint sauce, that lamb was heaven....

Know you want some, dad...mum can ALWAYS cook better for you...=)Hope your headache is gone and that Sibu's hotel treats you decently...=p

and now back to reality and the realisation that holidays are drawing to a close...*meh..

No laughs at God when....

2010-04-02T10:33:00.000+11:00

~*~

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor
No one laughs at God when the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one's laughing at God when it's gotten real late and their kid's not back from that party yet

No one laughs at God when their airplane starts to uncontrollably shake
No one's laughing at God when they see the one they love hand in hand with someone else and they hope that they're mistaken
No one laughs at God when the cops knock on their door and they say, "We've got some bad new, sir"
No one's laughing at God when there's a famine, fire or flood

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they've lost all they got and they don't know what for
No one laughs at God on the day they realize that the last sight they'll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes
No one's laughing at God when they're saying their goodbyes

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke
God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one's laughing at God in a hospital
No one's laughing at God in a war

No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
We're all laughing with God

~*~

human.
worldly ways.
the superficiality of praying/our intentions.
Your love is too prodigious.
help us to love more like You.

~*~

*no comment

2010-04-01T15:40:00.001+11:00

you'd think that after spraining an ankle and having your torn ligament injury come back in a period of 1 month was bad enough....

1. stone covered (=Very uneven) path
2. steep downhill
2. old runners
3. hot day
4. fatigue

= sprain ankle while walking slowly might i add....

i can't even believe it myself...

using a cold orange (with its skin on ofcourse)to numb it now..lol

31 days in June

2010-03-31T01:48:00.000+11:00

Tonight was the best decision i've made all week...lol

looking back on tonight's events...

Training back to Melbourne on the 2.28pm train was itself a long eventful trip...Sue's continuous "biting" of my arms, hilarious pictures, lame jokes, (me dozing off thus exposing me to horridious pictures- i can imagine), and ofcourse, great company Sue , Sarah and Christine!

Got checked upon by public transportation officers in the train to Glenny, walked to Sue's quaint house and changed. Both Sue and Sarah looked like they were "dressed like Zee Avi".

Now moving on to the interesting part:
eating...

Went to Petaling Jaya and we ordered respectively Tear drop noodle with minced pork and black fungi, char Kueh Tiaw and Wanton noodles while i curi-curi had the stir fry noodles from Halls last night!lol...

*ahem ahem - then Christine mentioned how hot one of the waiters looked. This catalysed a whole new debate on how Sue thought ANOTHER waiter who wasn't on duty was more hot and that the one that Christine had her eyes on was way too jock-ish. But oh well...the guy was DEFINITELY interested in her - sneaky glances at her, regular pointless walks past our table, an obvious focus on Christine when he poured us all tea - "Ladies, can i fill up your tea?" - whilst looking at Christine...
Definitely plan to come back here again to see if the guy has the nerve to ask her out..LOL

Next, we rushed to Northcote thinking that we were late...Chai - Sue's brother kindly gave us a lift there since he was going to watch Zee Avi with us! It was a full moon that night which we took as a good sign, right? RIGHT!
We did get lost for a little while and then parked a few blocks from the club BUT we ended up early anyway cause although the ticket said 7.30 start, it was actually 8 =p

OH OH OH!

While we were lining up to have out tickets checked, Zee Avi walked past! She was pretty discreet but i kinda ruined that...since Sarah, Sue, Christine and Chai didn't see her, i was frantically trying to get them to turn around to get a glimpse of her...
As she walked up the stairs to their rooms, i'm guessing, i impulsively called out to her, "Do you mind if i could take a picture with you?"
LOL
AND she replied," I'll be around after the show!" in a cheery voice...

Sarah and Sue were like "eeeeeeeeeeee.....she talked to you!"

hahaha...

Let's skip the part where we camwhored for a while after getting to sit on the floor in front of the stage (2nd row) and Sue/Christine buying merchandise from the stall set up there.

Zee Avi began with an acapella of a song which i didn't recognise - perhaps a cover or smtg...then she brough the crowd to start snapping thus bringing us to her first original song of the night, "Poppy".

Then she sang a cover song, "Slow Hands" by Interpol (which she made a joke out of based on her malaysian and internatioinal/interpool fans lol) which was hauntingly lovely...

~*~
Yeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
And I might stop and look upon your face
Disappears in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violet blaze

Can't you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, we slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself now

I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice cause the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms and grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You makes me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad of ways that I love you

Can you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
Killer for hire, you know not yourself

We spies, we slow hands
You out the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
We retire like nobody else
We spies, intimate slow hands
Killer for hire you know not yourself
We spies, intimate slow hands
You let the face slap around the self
~*~

Then she sang "Honeybee" which she mentioned was her only love song and that she's lost "it" to write more love ones..Although not one of my FAV of her songs, it was still a lovely sing along song...

"Bitter Heart" began with a chic acapella of verse one and flowing into an acoustic version. One guy in the crowd sang "of mine......" too early which made him Zee Avi's target in getting him to sing the line when the time came.Sue, Sarah and I sang the loudest that night i think....since we know her lyrics pretty well..

She introduced her next (NEW) song by sharing the origin of this song:

Her friend was telling her how she'd spent 31 days in June homeless in the US....LOL
she 'asked' if she could borrow that one liner for her song - which was about adapting to a place and about your consciousness. On the other hand, "You COULD treat this as your lover kind of thing, if you wanted to?" ~Zee Avi =)

This song was amazing...loved the plucking pattern in this song and the lyrics are really awesome as well...

Moving on to her ukulele, she announced that "Just You and Me" was the first song she wrote on a ukelele. Singing along was the BOMB! where's the fun without the sing along!

And finally ending the night with Kantoi!

This performance is WAY WAY too short.Still in awe of the whole package: the vocals, the quality of the music, the emotions - overflowing actually, the ambience and the talent shining through the uniquely written songs...

After her exit from the stage, we waited for her to come to the merchandise table where we lined up to take a picture/autograph from her...
A guy infront of Christine and Sarah was totally hitting on her,talking to her for QUITE some time and the most outrageous thing was him picking up Zee Avi's hand gently and kissing it!!!!!!! (Christine and I then saw him walking up the stairs like he was stuck to Zee Avi with glue or smtg....)

creepy stalker material...

But yeah....Matt Costa is pretty ok...atleast we got a picture with him? lol
Mr Pitiful and a few other songs were amongst my favs but yeah....=)

I miss watching Zee Avi now....=p

"*snap snap snap snap

2010-03-29T22:40:00.000+11:00

My baby....."

Counting down to zee avi which is like in less than 24hrs!woo hoo!

Thanks to those wonderful people who introduced me to this amazing singer/song-writer from Malaysia - Miri i might add...

"Just you and me...."

~*~

Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in

I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed you had gone again

I love you more than songs can say
But i can't keep running after yesterday

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye

I hope it's not...

2010-03-28T19:33:00.000+11:00

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

~*~

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

~*~

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity

One thing about gyming....

2010-03-25T21:34:00.000+11:00

....is that it takes you away from all those thoughts running through your mind. (as my coursemates and I learnt today in the topic [coincidentally] "Stress" - that we take deep breaths just so to take our mind off our anxiety)

Cruising uphill through the "wind" on the treadmill, cycling on gear 2 all the way to 11 lol, some light weights, playing with the Swiss ball, using those cool weight machines, as well as trying to strengthen my core strength by bridging (not the bridging YOU were thinking of...hehe), crunching, push-up-ing and finally the most anticipated part of the workout - stretching....<3

All in one hour...

seems like a pretty joyous hour...no thoughts, just being wrapped up in the rhythm of the music, will power and determination. Don't you appreciate the satisfaction in working up a sweat, taking care of your body by giving it that adrenalin rush and motivating those usually lazy muscles towards a healthier state and perhaps giving our skin just a few more years of youthful glow and elasticity? lol

my only wish now is that my knee gets back to a state in which i'm actually capable of attending those group classes....=) and of course, when i can actually play badminton without one leg lagging behind...

Thank you Lord for this blessed day...needed one just like this...

hmmph...* i hate it when the endorphins wear off....

Ecclesiastes

2010-03-24T22:59:00.000+11:00

3

(1)For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: (2) a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; (3)a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; (4)a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; (5)a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; (6)a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; (7)a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; (8)a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.

"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things." ~Ecclesiastes 11:5

The Perth skyline from King's Park took my breath away...

2010-03-24T16:44:00.000+11:00

You have never been in love,
Until you’ve seen the stars,
reflect in the resevoirs

And you have never been in love,
Until you’ve seen the dawn rise,
behind the home for the blind

We are the pretty petty thieves,
And you’re standing on our street..

...where Hector was the first of the gang
with a gun in his hand
and the first to do time
the first of the gang to die. Oh my.
Hector was the first of the gang
with a gun in his hand
and the first to do time
the first of the gang to die. Oh my.

~*~

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Save me San Francisco

2010-03-22T11:19:00.000+11:00

I can always only always JUST get that far...

~

"Just another perfect mistake,
Another bridge to take.."

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

2010-03-18T00:01:00.000+11:00

Doing things APART from studying like
- BOHDS minutes which i still haven't finished
- NCIS invitations which i had to deliver from like 8.30 to 10.20 (inclusive of talking and helping my dent kids out)
- eating crap
- walking to the city to get my train ticket for monday and to get my money order + stamp; ended up only getting the stamp as i didn't have enough cash to get my money order...=_="
- i had a good 60++ mins worth of walking (back and forth from Halls to the town centre plus back and forth from Halls to uni)
- RAM meeting for like 45 mins
- fbing and emailing and MORE emailing
- printing lecture notes (but not reading them)
- Grumbling about lousy internet and printing facilities at Scott Annexe
- MORE talking to people from Halls, randomly, sometimes just to catch up/get to know more new people
- shower in this freaking hot day
- wash my clothes because i had heaps of unwashed clothing
- spilling LOADS of my powdered detergent on the CARPETED floor....(looks like some drug bust happened in my room.....=p)
- folded my clothes which were in my other clothes-drying room since last week...
- writing this blog...

ALL IN LESS THAT 24 HOURS???????pretty amazing if i used that time to study.....
WHY DIDN'T I STUDY?

one thing that struck me today was

while i was walking to the post office, had this little girl running right beside me stop, look left, look left again and she was gonna run straight across the road to her family who was waiting in the car...

A car was going to turn into the road that little girl and i were going to cross...that old lady driving this huge 4-wheel drive was so sure that the girl WASN'T going to cross that she just looked right and stepped on the accelerator...

My hand instinctively shot out at the girls arm and grabbed hold of it...

Thankfully, she didn't think i was a kidnapper and no scream was evident.lol.

That forward resistance that i felt right after i held her arm scared me...

I might just be over thinking this situation but i thank God that i was His instrument in preventing such a catastrophe..

"thank you" =)

I never give you my pillow.....

2010-03-16T13:56:00.000+11:00

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life

~

All the details in the fabric?
Are the things that make you panic?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow?
Hell, no reason, go on and scream.
If you're shocked, it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing...

~

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

~

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Golden slumbers fill your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye
Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Boy you're gonna carry that weight, carry that weight for a long time
Boy you're gonna carry that weight, carry that weight for a long time

I never give you my pillow, I only send you my invitations

And in the middle of the celebrations, I break down

Oh yeah, all right, are you gonna be in my dreams tonight?
Love you..........

And in the end, the love you take, is equal to the love, you make

Baby, baby, baby ohhh......

2010-03-14T01:27:00.000+11:00

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

~Anna Nalick

If it kills me...

2010-03-05T00:01:00.000+11:00

Running around like a chuke which had been caged for years...

Tons of paperwork to do but i'm still blogging, Fbing and taking every little time i have to do OTHER stuff...

Fear is my only barrier...

But anyway...

The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
~Psalm 27:1

So let's get to it...
=)

2010-03-02T13:01:00.000+11:00

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Skinny love

2010-02-28T22:27:00.000+11:00

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

poignant...poetic...cuts deep..

Gentleman don't....

2010-02-24T01:49:00.000+11:00

You run your fingers across my lips
No I've never felt like this before, no, no
Well I know I'm young but I've known love
And I'd know I know an angel if I saw one

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words...

I'm just a simple man, simple plans,
Good work, take care of my fam,
I'm sure you understand
Because you're heaven sent, independent,
Well do you think you need me?
I think I need you girl, baby can't you see?

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your words...

No no no...I won't, I won't

Cards on the table
Willing and able
Stable, capable
Of holding you down
I'm just sayin...
I'm not complainin' your love is worth waiting for

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words...

~Gabe Bondoc

Reflections...

2010-02-23T01:33:00.001+11:00

obsessed with these 2 songs now....

Today was a fairy tale....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAX2UguYAPs

&

When you say...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOeuG5yH5vw&feature=channel

Anyway, it's back to uni in about 6 days..

not really looking forward to uni now that i've become a lazy pig but think i'll be catching up with reality and work soon...=p

Faith makes all things possible....love <3 makes all things easy....

So i guess loving to do something (an activity/career sort of context) it'll be a piece of cake....

Lord, i leave it all up to you.....this year will be a hectic, stressful, demanding, packed-to-the-MAX year but I know if i do it Your way, it'll be a fulfilling, glorifying, rejuvenating and inspiring heck of a journey...

love/hate holidays...

2010-01-19T01:25:00.000+11:00

Don't you just love/hate holidays....

Love:
~meeting people you haven't met in ages/always meet anyway and meet MORE often just because we can...until we are sick of each other
~eating delightful hometown food especially if we've been down under/up there/elsewhere apart from Kch...
~spending time with family
~do nothing/just read/just watch tv/just laze without feeling as guilty as when we're supposed to be studying

Hate:
~when people you love hanging out with don't have the same holidays as you do
~at the end of the holiday when it has dawned on you (usually it's annually) that the next time we see each other might be in a year or two or three ........

drowning in all those memories...just so bittersweet

changes...the inevitable...the unstoppable....the reality...

=)/=p

-_-

2009-11-02T19:44:00.000+11:00

i hate dinner time......

sigh....

wish it could be like any other time of the day other than that....

Seperate ways - Elvis Presley

2009-07-03T17:01:00.000+10:00

I see a change is coming to our lives
Its not the same as it used to be
And its not too late to realize our mistake
Were just not right for each other

Love has slipped away left us only friends
We almost seem like strangers
All that's left between us are the memories we shared
Of times we thought we cared for each other

There's nothing left to do but go our separate ways
And pick up all the pieces left behind us
And maybe someday, somewhere along the way
Another love will find us

Some day when shes older, maybe she will understand
Why her mom and dad are not together
The tears that she will cry when I have to say goodbye
Will tear at my heart forever

There's nothing left to do but go our separate ways
And pick up all the pieces left behind us
And maybe someday, somewhere along the way
Another love will find us

Insomnia

2009-04-22T15:14:00.000+10:00

Which one do you prefer?

The korean (Wheesung) version or the english (Craig David) version?

Korean:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MLYg8rwdihM&feature=related

English:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9m555jHRMEo&feature=related

both are pretty awesome...but the korean video's more...entertaining...i think...lol

Dazed

2009-03-01T01:24:00.000+11:00

Sometimes it feels like i'm still in a dream...

Is it really happening?

Sometimes it feels like I've just been transported to and fro into new places...unknown.....

Sometimes it feels like i'm in the same place and nothing has actually changed...

Maybe the ppl, the physical environment...but it hasn't really...

In a good/bad way?

Truth & Dare

2009-02-26T02:45:00.000+11:00

1. G**** & H**** having some guy lip-to-lip action..including a hug... *scarred for life..

2. G**** having to put a snake lolly in his underpants & eat that SAME snake lolly in another dare

3. G**** having to sleep outside his RA's (Heath) door as if he locked himself out of his room
(more like a failed "booty call") We almost made him dirty dance in front of the RA but he was
out at the Foam party..

4. Few ppl having to admit in Truth that

they were virgins (how was their first time)
what their favourite position was
how many sexual partners they had
their fetishes
what was the reason for their last breakup
whom they had the hots for given he or she must be a Ressy

5. G**** had his face drawn on with permanent marker

6. K**** having to LICK a condom

7. A**** having to eat lubricant

8. wasn't a dare but H**** squeezed J***'s man boobs...*eww...

Universal - the beginning of O week

2009-02-24T01:52:00.001+11:00

after O duff at the S.U.,we had a free bus to Universal club/pub..

it was soooooooooooooooooooo crowded...
so many ppl lining up/pushing for a drink..

walking around with my thongs sticking to the ground due to all those spilt drinks..

but...

dancing/singing/drinking wth your new found frens...*yeah...that was awesome...

with my corona clinking with the cruisers/beers on tap of others, rainbow lights flashing,music blaring - it was a blast...

i think forgetting names was a big issue of our group...lol...

i think we went through at least 100-200 names this weekend...*brain cramp...too much info...

like John Chris Gary Kelsie Sarah Mandy John(again) Vince Andrew Jackson Trish Anita Sharon Sonia Mary Ann Grace Fuzzy Daniel (x2) Jane Saga Heath/Pete Abs Aubrey Leanne Kim Mac Greg Jared Lams Dylan Jamaimah Derek Hooky Alan Nam Flicky Lo Lauren Kerry Cleeta David Henry Alistair Damien Alyssa Eve Barb(Brady) Barbara Kylie Maureen Lucy Tom Ursula Nasim Rosie Tory Bridget Courtney Geneta Iffy Karmen Gavin Lisa Jess Lorainne Bev ....

nope...brain just died...i'll try to remember more later...

still sober...but i think the alcohol's making me sleepy..

Fashion Disasters & Trivia

2009-02-23T18:23:00.000+11:00

wearin...

1)half of hair tied on one side

2)pants turned inside out

3)socks wth thongs

lol...this was all i had for the fashion disaster themed evening...

yeah...other crazy outfits included

1)picture a guy wearing a girls pink dress nightie and it was half tucked into his G-string underwear...plus using lipstick to draw a clown-like smile on his face...

*shivers...

2)two girls teamed up to wear garbage bag dresses with garbage bag shoes and a bubble wrap hat on top of a blond haired wig..

3)another skinny guy wrapped himself up with glad wrap and covered his...*ahem areas with aluminium foil..

that's about enough visuals to give you nightmares for a month...

we also had a trivia competition where 10 groups competed...

it was divided into a few catagories such as sports, famous ppl, general knowledge, music/artists,

and geography...there was also some puzzles and cryptics...

some questions were crazy....dont know ANYTHING about footie or cricket...

i never knew that Australia only won ONE gold medal at the Beijing Olympics that WASN'T water related...-->steve hooker in pole vault...wow...

now i know Neil Patrick Harris...--actor in 'How I met Your Mother'

aidan T would be furious bout me not knowing the answer to this question...

anyway,our group got 4th...it was alright..some smarty pants guy (Brady) was freaking answering most of the questions in for our group...so yeah...we owe to to him in getting us as far as fourth...

ofcourse there were many more Qs but ofcourse...i forgot...*gold fish memory span....as usual...

gonna go for O Duff party tonight...

got some 70s outfit which i dun even noe if it's 70s...

=p..

hope i can get in with my malaysian ID...

if not...bummer....

drama drama drama

2009-02-18T02:10:00.000+11:00

i'm back after a month (atleast)...

anyway, i just had to talk about this crazy/humorous/unfortunate event..

went to watch Gran Torino just now...it was a GOOD movie...

but that wasnt the point..

anyway, it first started out with my cousin bringing me to Donny to watch a movie with Aidan and Julian..

1st blunder/misfortune, is that she forgot to bring the $8 village cinema movie tix voucher..

2nd blunder/misfortune, she intended to buy coffee at Gloria Jeans but it was closed so she had to walk across Westfield to a faraway coffee shop to get her much needed coffee...

3rd blunder/misfortune (biggest ever....), she left her car lights on for atleast 2.5 hrs....which drained her car battery thus couldn't ignite the combustion for the engine = no transport home..

4th blunder/misfortune, told RACV the wrong car colour + model no. , so when the RACV guy came, he ignored the car and we had to chase him atleast 300m but he still got away..(had to call
a few no.s to bring him back...)

5th blunder/misfortune, her car was in such bad condition (low on oil, wrongly charged alternator, faulty/outdated electrical system) that the repair man advised her to refill on oil costly $10 per litre...

6th blunder/misfortune, when returning the parking ticket, she dropped it.therefore had to get out of the car to pick it up and put it back in the machine...

if the car broke down half way home i'd so die laughing...

but yeah...Cant really transfer the fun/laughter to this journal entry...grrr!!!

wish i could share the tears-n-pain-from-laughing...

lols...i tried my best..
=)

holidays...

2009-01-18T02:00:00.001+11:00

i waste waste waste waste waste LOADS of time...

yeah...there are a few moments of accomplishment...

but then there are REALLY disappointing moments...

sigh...

but then signs like seeing

" Victory belongs to the most persevering~Napoleon Bonaparte "

on a simple calendar page can help lighten the mood a little...

naive as it sounds, it helps to be extra optimistic at times...

what a week...

2008-11-29T14:48:00.000+11:00

It's been some crazy week for me....

after completing exams, i've just been working and going to the lab...sleeping at 3 am almost every morning(that's my fault tho...since i've been watching a movie every night before i sleep...=p)but i do reach home at about 11.30 pm avg anyway...

but yeah...despite that, the highlight of my week was....

"WICKED"!!!

omgosh....it was a mind-blowing/spectacular/music/singing/acting sensation!tian was right...i should have got better seats eventhough sitting on Row T was actually enough...it WAS expensive just to buy backrow tix but it seriously was worth it...

grr... i should have bought the music cd instead of the program booklet !!grr...but nvm...it's enough of a souveneir with the addition of the tix...

i wont expose the contents of it but seriously...whoever's a huge fan of broadwayand all that jazz, PLEASE....you must not miss this...

yeah...that was wednesday night...

my thurs and fri was a little crazy now that i'm down with the flu + a sore throat...

Labs have been...lets just say that i was given a 2cm thick pile of just pure research material to read...it's literally drowning in scientific blabber ( media ingredients,techniques, discoveries,research materials...you get the picture....)

the most exciting(maybe gruesome actually...) was watching the researchers "cervically dislocating" 5 mice at a time out of about 20 and then dissecting them(dont worry..the mice die instantaneously without pain)...all this just to get the "ampula" of these female mice located at the uterine horns just before the ovary...it's only about 2 times the size of a needle hole btw....then after collecting these little sacs of embryos (or if the mice failed to mate with the designated male-just unfertilised eggs),they would then - under a high tech dissecting microscope - tear open these tiny sacs to collect the embryos, culture them and then use them for their respective experiments...

cruel you might say, this is what has to be done for us humans to get what WE want...in vitro fertilisation, knowledge on embryonic/foetal development/abnormalities/mutations, vaccines and so on...

but one thing has kept me from fully learning and absorbing all this info....slppe deprevation...

yes...i have been constantly keeping myself from falling asleep every 20 mins in the lab (every few mins when i was counting flourescing cells in a stained embryo) so now i better start sleeping...

BUT...

i'm leaving for the airport at 4 am for adelaide!

sigh...no more sleep but i am so gonna spend this upcoming 4 days devoting myself to spiritual growth and getting to know MORE ppl...

=D yet *yawn...

did you know?

2008-10-29T22:45:00.000+11:00

did you know nanotechnology has enabled the possibility of forming a "shell" which consists of a single layer of a charged particle to form a medicine capsule?

did you know that action potentials which initiate nerve impulses are connected to circuits which contain capacitors?

did you know that our heart is a "magnet" everytime impulses are sent throughout its muscular form to enabling pumping of blood?Above is just a magnificent picture of the Earth's magnetic field interacting with the Sun's.

did you know that there are guys (genetically with the XY sex chromosome) can LOOK (phenotypically) like a girl?testicular feminization syndrome...

did you know Jamie Lee Curtis(above) is rumoured to have this syndrome?So guys, whenever you look at this "hot" woman...think of how similar their genetic content is to yours...

did you know that there are you are more at risk of exposure to nuclear radiation by sleeping next to someone everynight than someone who sleeps alone?(due to the potassium in your body emitting radiation..

did you know that a scientist Henri Becquerel actually carried a glowing radioactive Radium salt in his vest pocket?

did you know that our epidermis houses billions of bacteria/microflora/other commensals?this includes your oesophagus, digestive tract, your exterior skin & even in the hair follicles of you eyebrows!This picture depicts a harmless commensal known as Demodex which lives in your eyebrow follicles...so next time you feel it itching, think of them...lols*

did you know that parasites can hide in your muscles by encysting themselves in between the layers of muscles fibres thus avoiding your immune system? disgusting fellow....
did you know that the aurora borealis is the spectacular spiralling of UV light emitting electrons caused by the earth's magnetic field?

i never knew until Uni...

love...

2008-10-19T00:36:00.000+11:00

to always be yourself

to do what you've always dreamed of

to be "high" on euphoria/just plain sugar =D

to have the utmost confidence in yourself

to have a wonderful family/amazing friends

to feel secure

to be surrounded by love

to love...

possibility of any: infinitesimal OR infinite?

you're the judge

Khalil Fong

2008-10-06T19:26:00.000+11:00

Goodbye melody rose...
Awesome
song + voice...

What a waste...

2008-10-06T19:22:00.000+11:00

Time...

Effort...

Energy...

Sacrifice...

Higher priorities...

and for what?

I ask Your forgiveness...

it is this which is most despicable to me...

to You..

pictures speak for themselves

2008-10-06T18:57:00.000+11:00

guess what the pigs are up to...=p..
the mystery
of 23/09/08

2008-09-11T23:18:00.000+10:00

Business = fading fading fading

Secondhand Serenade - fall for you

2008-09-11T19:18:00.000+10:00

you're right kitty...

*love this song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rA7x2PpZNgg&feature=related

faces of boredom

2008-09-08T00:04:00.000+10:00

Headshot

Disgusted- there was a caterpillar on the strawberry that i could have possibly eaten...*puke

muahahahaha...

Raining...is it worth the tears?

oh no! i'm showing everyone my pig-covered pjs...

hmm...is this how i'd look after a bashing?
(i noe...really pathetic attempt at Paint)

hmm...wondering about my next move...

music & mess

irremovable scars..

2008-09-03T22:14:00.000+10:00

Was sitting in the Prince Philip Theatre dreading boring old Experimental Design & Data Analysis when my delightful friend *Kristen (who i havent seen for ages!) rocked up for this lecture!

She's this lovely girl from a foreign country..cultured, friendly, open & adorable!

of course we began the usual but desired regime on "how are you?!"s and all that...
how she's been lazy (like the rest of us...lols), how she's coping with a lonely life here in Melbourne, how her studies are going and so on....

amidst our full-of-laughter-but-partially-shushed-due-to-the-lecture conversation, she starts talking about her bf and her weekly (WEEKLY!) visits to *Adelaide to meet her boyfriend!
I was going "awhhh...." at first but then here comes the bomb shell...

Her face tells it all..As she tries to hide her true feelings, i notice glimpses of HER through that cracked mask...glints of fear, sadness, disappointment, exhaustion, anxiety....but she's been practising putting on her "makeup"...the "concealer" works well to strangers...

She begins revealing how her "kind & really nice" bf has been hitting her...

I was immediately paralysed...

She then goes on about her bf's anger explosions that eventually lead to her being bashed up...
The punching bag as we would call it..She tells me of her bruises on her body (if she'd showed me ,it'd be even more heartbreaking...) She ever so calmly tells me of her visits to the doctor who even advised her to report this dire issue to the authorities...

What could anyone do?

She said she loved him. Even casually joked that she won't go see him this time so that he'd feel guilty. She mentioned how he begged for her forgiveness when she told him that breaking up was what she wanted...how he promised her that he'd stop his aggression once and for all but....(predictably..) in her last visit, he failed to keep his end of the bargain in this relationship...To the point where he (quote) "hit me(*Kirsten) in front of my sister.."

I was absolutely speechless....i've never had a friend who's been in such an ....(hate to say...)...abusive relationship...

Dumbfounded, i only manage to repeat to her to be really careful...asked her if her parents knew and shockingly-yes was her answer...she exclaimed how angry her mum was but i didnt ask if her mother actually did anything about it...Asked if she'd made up her mind on breaking up, she was still hesitant and indecisive...

The lecture soon came to a close...this was glued/stapled/plastered/caged/locked up in my mind...

As she walked out, i said be careful one last time...And that no one...absolutely NO ONE deserves to be hit like that...and that she deserves the best...She thanked me and left...

With her back facing me, i thought to myself - what a strong woman...still attending university, continuing with her life...

She really does deserve better...

=(

* name and location has been changed to keep identities secret

Sometimes...

2008-09-02T00:58:00.000+10:00

Sometimes there are times when things just don't fall into Place... Right now, i'm thinking ...pondering... About not achieving what I really yearned for... Nothing can turn back the clocks... Enough said, it was my fault for not Digesting the advice & warnings and acting on it..
Anger,frustration... Not today....not today... Keep calm, stay optimistic... Learn from your mistakes... Enough regret, look forward...

31st August 2008

2008-08-30T02:43:00.000+10:00

What first pops into your mind when Malaysia comes into question?

Our Beloved Flag?

Remember Cikgu Chai teaching us batik during Art class?haha...those were the fun(lazy) high sch periods...

yum....
Roti canai at Cilipadi, perhaps?

How i miss nasi lemak...the sambal, the deep fried fish, the roasted & fried peanuts & ikan bilis...

The iconic KL Twin Towers?

lols...*

merdeka in Kch was just about having an extra day off from sch..

here in Melbourne...Malaysians actually celebrate what we neglect back home..
Clubbin', a potluck, going to the Fiesta Malaysia at Fed Square this Sunday perhaps?

Music, Malaysian traditional products on sale...(sumtimes the supposedly "malaysian-made" products on sale could be just "Made in China" =p) but i heard...that there wasn't gonna be any Msian food on sale (at all) at Fed Square??? smtg bout not being able to get the permits and stuff...

so not Msian...

The independence of your country of birth...where you spent the last 17 years relishing the peace and prosperity of this nation...leeches as we are, we take this relatively crisis-free country for granted...Just insulting/mocking whatever form of patriotism that comes our way because well...it's "uncool" or "weird"...

Malaysia...despite its government's (sadly) declining competency, my heart still belongs to my home...my Malaysia...

what does 31st of August actually MEAN to you?

Bitter...

2008-08-28T20:10:00.000+10:00

"I wondered what happened when you offered yourself to someone, and they opened you, only to discover you were not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same."

~Jodi Picoult - My Sister's Keeper

Sweet..

2008-08-28T20:03:00.000+10:00

"Once in second grade, Kate drew a picture of a firefighter with a halo above his helmet. She told her class that I would only be allowed to go to Heaven, because if i went to Hell, I'd put out all the fires."

~Jodi Picoult - My Sister's Keeper

only human

2008-08-27T21:49:00.000+10:00

A squirrel in the tree is he watching me
Does he give a damn?
Does he care who I am?
I'm just a man, is that all I am
Are my manners misinterpreted words or only human?
I'm human

Murderous crow, hey what you know
What you reading about, what you hold in your toes
Is that a twig, are you a dove of peace
A black dove undercover, with another puzzle piece
Are you a riddle to solve all along?
Or am I over thinking thoughts of human after all

Only human
Made of flesh, made of sand, made of you and me
The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise

`Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, yes we are
Only human, only human, only human
So far

Up in the major's tree, the one he planted back when he was just a boy
Thinking 1923
Thirty meters and a foot, take a look, take a climb
What you'll find is the product of a seed
The seed is sown, all alone
It grows above, with a heart of love
Sharp and shelter of the animals of land and cold weather breathing
We're all breathing in

The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise

`Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, only human, only human, so far, so far

And this place it will outlive me
Before I get to heaven I'll climb that tree
And I will have to give my thanks
For giving me the branch to swing on
If I ever fall in love
I'll have to give myself a baby
I will let my children have their way

`Cause we're only human, yes we are
Only human, so far, so far

Olympic "Gold" Moments....

2008-08-24T01:57:00.000+10:00

Steve Hooker - Pole vault 5.96m (OR)

USA - BBall

Stephanie Rice & Michael Phelps....get cosy?

Stephanie Rice - 3 Gold Swimming (3 WR)

Chen Roulin- Diving Gold 10m platform

Nadal - Tennis Individual Champion

Zou Kai - Gymnastics Floor Champion

Deng Lin- Gold Gymnastics

Matthew Mitcham- Diving 10m platform

The AMAZING MICHAEL PHELPS!-8 swimming golds(mostly WRs)

Usain "Lightning" Bolt....100m & 200m track champion!

"You're the best definition of good versus evil..."

2008-08-16T02:01:00.000+10:00

Awesome concert

2008-08-15T00:35:00.000+10:00

Was looking forward to this concert for a long time...

Jason Mraz...My first ever real live music concert...

We (Bernice, Donna, Maria, Janan, Hilary,Mitch, Nicole, Angela & I) waited outside the theatre since like 6 although the doors to the theatre were to open only at 7.15pm...Apparently, we werent the only Kiasu ones...there were atleast 50 r so ppl already in the queue...plus the "frens" of theirs who came late, that make about between 100- 200 ppl altogether IN FRONT of us only...we were relatively early...ahahha

Anyway, when the line started moving, my heart began pumping faster...grr...having to throw my drinking water before going in the theatre ticked me off a little tho...(It's due to the standing theatre's drink selling tactic.=p)

Anyway, while inside of the building BUT still outside of the theatre, we had the chance to buy J.Mraz merchandise...grr...although the shirt looked tempting, i just bought the badges which had his album picture and stuff so i'm satisfied...=)

then when we got in the theatre, some ppl went to sit at the back!!why???anyway,we took the oppourtunity to get as close to the stage as possible..hehe....we were like the 2/3 row from the front...=D so happy..the squeezing and numb legs were worth it...

The waiting period was horrible though....after we got in the theatre, we had to wait for the opening act to get ready...Melanie Horsnell was pretty good actually!!really thought her songs were honest...has a Sarah Mclahlan voice and a unique style of music...With her on the rhythmic guitar and another guy on the base guitar...it was really lovely...

That was about 8.15pm...then her act finished at about 9.we had to wait like 30 mins for the stage crew to test all the band instruments/mike/sound system and stuff..grrrr....

FINALLY at about 9.40pm, Jason Mraz and his band (trumpet, trombone, Sax, Percussion, drums, keyboard, Guitar)came out...
wearing a grey t-shirt, jeans and a sleek hat(like his album cover), he radiated cool, suave and sophisticated. he looked much more buff than his normally skinny look and he had longer hair too...

and began engaging with the crowd literally "controlling" our cheers..getting our adrenaline running with the music getting faster and faster....ending with the BEGINNING of his classic The Remedy...
He even asked the girls to sing the chorus while he requested the guys to sing Oasis' "Wonderwall" simultaneously....=D terrific aint it?

It was just an amazing concert...

Singing songs like
"I'm Yours", "Summer Breeze", "Bella Luna", "Lucky"(with the opening act singer- Melanie Horsnell), "Only Human" & "If it Kills Me".
Everyone MUST watch Jason Mraz sing/perform live!!! he sounds SO much better live too!his perfect pitch singing with a unique compilation of notes, charming guitar skills and great communication skills make him the perfect entertainer...He knew how to work the crowd, incorporating highs and lows throughout the performance..

Singing along with Jason Mraz while he played and sang barefoot...(he was standing on a rug specially placed there for him...) was enjoyable...memorable...unforgettable...All the musicians performed as TEAM...laughing together, playing together...(excellently i must add)The jazzy instruments added that wonderful touch to that performance...

He threw pictures of his crew to the crowds...grrrr he flicked it to the back!!!!

Anyway, he ended the night with "You and I"...he played alone while the crowd sang along dreading the end of this lovely finale..The crowd was cheering for/begging him not to go as he crooned the last words of his song...

"I'm finally out of, finally dedeedum,
well i'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words..."

After emotional/reluctant bows, he finally made his way backstage leaving his imprint among us all...memories of a mind blowing performance...

what a night...*dazed..

To marianne...

2008-08-03T23:21:00.000+10:00

~MARIANNE~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
i'll be short...=D
To one of the sweetest, kindest, most genuine, most brilliant AND most
talented individuals on the planet...
i feel privileged to know her, what more to say to be RELATED to her...
Thank you for all those times we've shared..the sweet and the bitter...
May God bless you always....

hey...sorry i stole this pic off your page...i actually left all my pics with you in my other comp at home..=(

ear trouble...

2008-07-26T02:24:00.000+10:00

remembered when we were at Brunetti's on Lygon....we were just getting seated when i felt a stinging pain on my left earlobe...

reflex action kicks in.. i could recall that surge of panic as i felt my earlobe...i couldnt feel the front (decorative part) of the stud!!

OMGOSH.....

with cel and sjane nearby, i asked them to take a look...they confirmed it...yikes! this might give you a rough idea what i mean...

pondering over what might happen to my earlobe...that metal stud, embedded half way in my earlobe...horrible!disgusting!

knowing that i HAD no choice, i went to the bathroom and crazily spent about 10 -15 mins....(*self sensor this next part if your brain has a tendency to graphically portray words into an image...) pushing the stud out from the back to the front...it really was excruciating when i
made those few pushes...

with my earlobes blushing red during this ordeal...terrified emotions were replaced with relief and appreciation when i saw that spot of metal popped out in front of my earlobe...*whew!

droplets of red stained my pure white tissue when i dabbed the back of my earlobe...

walking out of the bathroom with cel and sjane,we strolled back to our seats...

close call...now my left ear lobe is hole-less once again..=S

suspense, mind blowing, sinister.....brilliant

2008-07-26T02:13:00.000+10:00

A must watch....Really the best comic book-turned- movie film i've seen...but ofcourse, due to the freakish and creepy Joker( salutation to the late Heath Ledger for his Oscar-deserving performance), little kids should NOT watch this movie to avoid nightmares...

=D

unforgettables

2008-07-19T01:56:00.000+10:00

laksa...

Crushed ice bubble tea without the pearls?hmmm...or with?

Cranberry and lime tart

Fettucine with pancetta, sun dried tomatoes and mushrooms

*they speak for themselves...yummy doughnuts..

Guava...

ah...memories...(part 1)

2008-07-14T23:30:00.000+10:00

Pier at St. Kilda...hmm....two people in the distance...SOME ppl were too afraid to walk to the end...hehhe...jk jk...=)

Wonderful picture by Tian...St. Kilda as well..

hahha...some seagull couldnt counter the gale blowing on this windy day...

Looks wrong ei?=D

Dex showing of his new sunglasses at DFO..

what a holiday...

2008-07-12T14:37:00.000+10:00

wow...bout 2 months since i last wrote on my blog...

better late than never,...

since the end of1st semester exams, the holidays incorporated boredom, excitement, sadness and joy all in just a month...

Friends coming from perth, adelaide and malaysia made the holidays complete of course...
Mike, Khang, Chin ann, Dex, Kok ming..

Going to Docklands where we just took in the picturesque view, saw black swans, and went ice skating was one unforgettable day...

Even though we didnt do much at St.Kilda and Brighton beach, it was just breathtaking to smell the salty breeze, feel the sand under your feet and capture the moment with pictures...risking our life(hahah...exaggerating...) to walk on the narrow one-sided rail pier while the gale was attempting to sweep us into the sea surrounding us was actually pretty exhilarating...GG...=D

Stalactites, dessert house, Freddo's icecream, Boost, Nando's, Universal, Cavalino's, Hungry jack's, fish and chips at St. kilda, Crown, Max Brenner's, Koko Black,Vic Market,Singapore chomp chomp, McDonalds, Flinders station, QV food court, Grill'd ..

did i miss any of our meal destinations? oh yeah...Tian's and Mtyp's place yeah?hehe...the bbq, the home cooked food and mike's cheese+choc cake were all delicious...

Shopping...Spencer's DFO, Bridge road, Melb central, Smith Street,.....

Summary:photographs, windy gales, nostalgia, tons of food, the company....ah....the company....

you really never know how much it means to you until it returns to your life after its long absence...

despite my overturned, empty and upset pockets, it was worth it...=D

sigh...it ends with the start of uni, the cries of goodbyes and the stress of studying...wish the holidays will return to us again....till we're all back home in our delightful home town...the anticipation....the hope...the motivation...

Miracles..

2008-05-16T18:31:00.000+10:00

How lucky are we?

Lucky to live

lucky to breathe

lucky to dream

lucky to have food to sustain ourselves

lucky to be able to feel the sun pour its generous rays into our homes

lucky to have earth to put our feet upon

lucky to be able to smile

lucky to have the ability to love

lucky to have a body moulded in the image of the Almighty God..

then why do we moan....

wish for more...

wish for less...

wish for success...

wish for that $1000 dress...

wish for that high pay job...

wish for popularity...

wish for that spankin' new car..

now there are individuals and souls in need of your prayers...your help...your love...

lets give instead of take..

Thank God for everything we have and experienced

Let's pray for miracles...

Once & August Rush

2008-04-25T01:35:00.000+10:00

Soundtracks are brilliant...

treat yourself to wonderful music...drown yourself in all the emotion and lyrics..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoSL_qayMCc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUS2ieIO5os

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4yY82owm7Ps

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnoeD9Xb6Xw&feature=related

Simple as it is...and will ever be...watch these two movies..

*melt..the simplest word to describe such emotions.

Coffee..

2008-04-10T12:53:00.000+10:00

I'm sure this reflects the opinions of many...

Anyway,...
Plush Fish..
Chill..
Three Wise Muffins..
Pronto...
Potter..

EVERYWHERE!

Although caffeine can stimulate the central nervous system giving rise to the effect of temporarily warding off drowsiness and restoring alertness (during those burning-the-midnight-oil sessions...=p)..

...drinking caffeinated coffee...

...can cause a temporary increase in the stiffening of arterial walls...

..when in excess, may lead to a magnesium deficiency or hypomagnaesemia and may be a risk factor for coronary heart disease...

...may have a mixed effect on short term memory by improving it when the information to be recalled is related to the current train of thought but making it more difficult to recall unrelated information...

BESIDES THAT,

...about 10% of people with a moderate daily intake (235 mg per day) reported increased depression and anxiety when caffeine was withdrawn...

...about 15% of the general population report having stopped caffeine use completely, citing concern about health and unpleasant side effects...

As for me, my definition...too much = headache

SO....DON"T GET HOOKED!!! (or i guess it can be don't try to unhook if you're already on it..hahaha...)

lets switch to H2O..

hmm...bubble cup's not a bad idea... (oh no...there's caffeine in tea too!!!)

Cruel world...

easter holidays? yeah right...

2008-04-02T01:20:00.000+11:00

Busy busy busy...

unfocused..

clouded..

confused...

torn..

lazy...

wanna let it all out...

that's all for now..

JASMINE!!!!

2008-03-14T08:40:00.000+11:00

Things that come to mind when i think of Jasmine are... ....the famous Jasmine flower with its lovely scent,...

...the picturesque Jasmine Hill Garden in Alabama,...

...Jasmine's ultimate cartoon favourite -yes?,...

...and i remember her urge to get these....

To one of my dearest dearest friends,

Happy happy birthday!!!

freaking fell asleep last night so i wasnt the first to wish you at 12 am...(dang...)

Anyway,....really...there's absolutely nothing!!(NOTHING!!!) i can say to express how much i appreciate your friendship over the last 6(going on 7) years...

Jasmine, i cant believe we became friends in such an instantaneous, spontaneous, and random manner...

*Form 1 -unorthodox seating arrangement by (the then) Mrs. Chan....Parliament style...

Just so happened both of us we placed next to each other...(introduced ourselves and said the normal hellos + how are you going...)

(If i was a journalist,i'd be sued billions for inaccurate quoting...so 1st of all, this upcoming convo is only a ROUGH sketch of what actually happened...=p)

~*~
Tiffany: So where do you live?
Jasmine: Jalan Stampin Timur..
Tiffany: Are you serious?omgosh...i live in Jalan stampin timur too!!!which Lorong?
Jasmine: hahahahha....really??lorong 4b.
Tiffany: =p...lols...i live along 4a...
Jasmine: Isn't it that lorong just in front of mine?

Tiffany: I think so...(blur moment*)
Jasmine: We can just use that small alley to get to each other's lorong right?
Tiffany: yeah!!!

Jasmine: woohoo!come visit!come visit!!
Tiffany: Of course!!cant believe we lived so close to each other for such a long time already...
~*~

And that was the beginning of a new friendship....muahahahhaha...=D

This slumber-loving, tiny,seemingly quiet gal should never be underestimated...(Take my advice...i KNOW) her wonderful, bubbly, carefree personality just relaxes all the ppl around her, creating that couldn't-be-bothered yet fun atmosphere...(conducive for bonding/gossiping/fooling around/completing projects too!!!)I miss those times...

Coupled with diligence ( although she wreaks of laziness =D, she knows when to be hardworking whenever she faces what she prioritizes most...) is her brilliance in languages, public speaking and tons more...( Deny all you want...but i'm sure the 2006's 5C will admit how terrific you are in speech especially...=p)

She's flamboyant person when it comes to her opinions ,persistent in her ambitions and yet humble all the way...She is a great person to talk and share your secrets with as she's like a safe with the highest security lock. Most importantly, she conveys that air of modesty, confidence and kindness that really keeps all of her friends in awe of her..

....I just had a revelation!!! I think scientists will find the secret of the Human pheromone in Jasmine!!!hahahha....*sweat...too many guys chase her as if all the guys in the world have been stuck by Cupid's arrow...hahha....it's not surprising though...=p...

"She is beautiful inside and outside...=D really!" ~ Anonymous

Thanks Jasmine for all we've been through all these years...it's been and will continue to be a pleasure knowing you...

I believe that you will achieve what you want in the next few years especially...know you will...faith in you is what i don't have little of...keep in touch and stay strong!!

*hugs....

PS:the rainbow coloured entry=insprired by Jas' love for colours...hahahhahahhahaha

Dreams

2008-03-10T23:40:00.000+11:00

Have you had the weirdest/amazing/puzzling dreams?

sometimes it conveys our actual intentions in life...

or perhaps it captures our darkest fears or deepest passion...

or perhaps it's a fusion of our hidden desires with our normal daily routine...

or perhaps just a figment/fabrication of our pent-up imagination...

or perhaps it's a piece of our past experiences...(either joyful, heartbreaking or terrifying)..

or perhaps (as myths and legends and old grandmother's tales tell us) that our dreams might be a prediction of the future...(*raise eyebrow?)

whatever it is... dreams are unstoppable, inevitable,..our thirst for it is unquenchable...

For some dreams however, i should make it a reality instead of just a vision that appears to me at night...

Bio, Chem, Calc, Microecons..=p

2008-03-08T00:14:00.000+11:00

new
complicated
more detailed
revelation
revision
mind boggling
humorous
intriguing
mountain loads

=p

Rejuvenating..enriching...fulfilling..

2008-03-05T20:36:00.000+11:00

It really touches your soul to do something that seems so insignificant which in actual fact can save a live or even lives...

Orientation...

2008-02-28T21:58:00.000+11:00

Things i did...

1.Student union membership: freebies!i get a free t shirt(but i printed the picture WAY too small so my tshirt only has a tiny picture printed on it..=p),can borrow dvds,discounts everywhere(including movies,food,coffee,ice cream,stationery,clubs...),more facilities(like lounges,computer rooms,bars)....many many more...=p had free BBQs too...The clubs joined for HALF the price include

UNICEF

Malysian's club in melbourne uni

Catholic society at melbourne uni(=p...wanna go world youth day....but i dunno if i can...)

2.games!! which includes this game supervised by the Victorian police where u r required to wear these goggles that blur ur vision (smtg like looking through the eyes of a drunk) then having to perform 3 tasks..pass them all (which i did...hurray!!) and u get a panic alarm button..hahahhaha...

3. Other FREE & FUN activities..like

Bungee trampoline!!!it was so fun!!!this is how it looks like...as i have no camera(GRRRR) jus grabbed this off the internet...hehehhe...the back flips are so so amazing...the worst feeling was when u jump really high and u feel this rising-stomach-feeling while coming down...but it was EXTREMELY fun...too bad for those who didnt try it...=p

henna art!wish i could take a pic of my hand and upload it...=p...here's an example tho...hahah...i actually went into WestCo. to look at some clothes while waiting for the 302 bus..and the cashier who is an Indian woman asked if i was married when she saw the henna art on my hand...ahhahahahhah..=p

personally drawn caricature by an artist!hehehe...(waited for bout 1 hr...the artist took like 5-7 mins per person which is pretty damn quick!and he does them all really well too..wow...i think he started drawing at 2.30 till bout 6...can u imagine???)i need to scan it!!!=p...dunno how with the fax/scan/photocopy/print/telephone machine...

draw smtg cute on the blackboard of the cultural and arts booth...get ur picture taken and even get sweets/postcards for ur time..

4. Informative sessions about ur subjects (bio mol, chem, microecons,calc) and also on general things like:

brain management(hehhe...a little bio recollection seeing how synapsis and neurotransmitters were included in the talk...) how to improve ur memory through social interactions as well as a healthy mind, body and soul..it was really helpful...

even if i'm not doing accounting...i attended it accidentally thinking it was microecons...the lecturer was so funny and engaging..teaching his students while cracking us all up...

the outstanding lectures were full of humour, cute pictures, audience participation and cool
videos...

5. having some time alone to digest the extent of ur present life...how far u've come from those primary sch years ,high sch....uptill now...UNIVERSITY...hmmmm...but getting lost in the extremely huge campus and running around in circles wasnt exactly fun my cup of tea...=p it did give me time to think tho...

monday monday monday...such a build up of anticipation!!

For Mel

2008-02-25T17:24:00.001+11:00

Mel mel mel....

What can we say about mel?

hmm...the real question is...what can i NOT say about mel...?

LIST:
1. Damn lame/funny/forever 5c's saving grace from the most boring of days..I can never forget her crazy Lab report bout *ahem and *ahem...hehehe...and her "what's Bruce Lee's favourite drink?" joke..(the answer's WA-TAH - *an exaggeration of water... =p) *lols....

2. A terrific, trustworthy....a true friend...always there to cheer her buddies up when they're down, upset or frustrated. Honest..Not forgetting the casual "I'm gonna kick that guy's a** !" whenever one of our gf's are mistreated by their guys...ehehe...She's keeps the cats IN the bag too (very professional and honours confidentiality...hehe)

3. She definitely is "Mesmerizing Mel". A charismatic personality coupled with admirable morals..definitely a lovely person to be around as her optimism jus oozes out of her and spills on everyone within a 5 mile radius around her!! =p (hehe...an exaggeration i'm proud to use on mel...)

4. Intellegent...DUH!!still remember this crazy girl's academic record esp during primary sch during which she'd never fail to top the class every term...=) attaining the Tuart college scholarship proves my point on her brilliance anyway...=p i'm so proud to have such a smart, friend...apart from academic achievements, she's also an adroit and determined bball player!!being the bball girl pioneer of our year having been the first of our year to qualify for the Lodge's bball definitely earned the respect of many...obviously she deserved the post of team captain in 2006...an accomplished play maker...=)

5. A spiritually strong individual..an avid and active attendee of church, she's admired by many...involved in worship, giving testimonials...=) more of this kind of devotion is needed in christianity !!

there are many more things that can be said about Mel... but by listing them all out I'd commit the crime of robbing ppl of the privilege to get to know Mel personally..=) I must say that she is a person that is worth being friends with...

Happy birthday Mel...hope you have a fantastic birthday with your family and friends...most importantly, i wish you all the best in all your endeavours and may u seek God for his guidance to achieve them... Know that i appreciate your friendship and the awesome times we've shared..

grrr...you're on the other side of this huge island...*hugs...can't give u this in person tho..hmph...

GRRR>>>

2008-02-14T00:05:00.000+11:00

reformated my computer and now i've lost all my programs like Adobe Flash Player so i cant even view the animations on my blog!

=p

and now my Msn Messenger has been relegated to it's more...primitive version..=p

AND since my bro and I exceeded our Broadband bandwidth i'm stuck with a laggy internet connection...

*dang...

Year-of-the-rat-inspired story..

2008-02-12T01:19:00.000+11:00

2008 starting 7th of February marks the year of the rat..In India, the temples serve rats milk as if they were sacred animals...Rats all around the world *drool and dream of coming to such a place where they were treated like royalty instead of starving...scavenging...

However, all rats knew that the journey/race to India would be a life changing,perhaps even fatal adventure...goal...but most are willing to take that risk...for the rewards would be priceless...worth it...

As u can see...starvation can drive rats to do the most gruesome,abhorrent things...and rats don't like to further tarnish their reputation as being the bearer of diseases and filth...Therefore,the possibility of never being hungry again is a very appealing condition to be in..

Unfortunately...not all rats want to share this "treasure"with other fellow rats...

So, these selfish rats result to.......*drum roll....(with an eerie tone...)murder....muahahahhaha....
first of these methods include drowning other rats..

..tricking them into staying on the "yellow brick road" which would lead them to cheese paradise...sadly,these gullible mice end up being rolled over,flattened,and smashed by ignorant drivers....

These selfish rats drew pleasure from their evil schemes...This was still not enough...avarice for the prized treatment in India grew each day..and soon...while some of these selfish rats laughed,other selfish rats betrayed their "team" of killers....

The betrayed were caught by human...*i'm scared....this rat said....*let me outta here!!

Unfortunately, these betrayed rats met a horrible death..their bodies couldnt be saved for a proper funeral as humans(esp Taiwanese....) seem to make food out of everything possible..slicin their tails of to be deep fried and preparing the body of the rats for....

RAT STEW!....you can find this dish in Chengdu...seriously...

We can only hope that the poor souls of those innocent,ambitious rats are happy in heaven...Whilst the selfish ones...after turning against themselves all ended up being captured by humans and thus face a near future of being slaughtered by humans for consumption..how sad is that?

that's the life of a rat...

even in the year 2008...

=p

PS My first attempt at such things...bear with my un-funniness..hahhaha =p

=)

2008-02-09T23:24:00.000+11:00

I Wait

I wait for you,
anxious to see your face.

I stand and watch,
looking for the first sign of your arrival.

I finally see you,
I take a second look to make sure you're really there.

My pulse races and I crack a smile,
this is what I've been waiting for.

You begin to approach,
you say, "Sorry, I'm late."

I say, "No problem."
But I think to myself, 'I'd have waited forever.'

- Jordan Jones -

Love is not needing a snooze button on your alarm clock

because when it goes off the first time in the morning

the thoughts of your loved one make it impossible to fall back asleep.

- Natasha Harris –

*blur...

2008-02-09T02:19:00.000+11:00

hahaha...Xin introduced me to the game Jawbreaker on Joshua's PDA....got hooked straight away...

Was walking outside( in the pitch black darkness) to Xin's car so that we(felicia,josh,wan tian and Xin) could go to Xin's hse for worship practice...

As i was too busy focusing my attention to the game, i walked blindly...

Ended up walking STRAIGHT INTO the BACK OF XIN'S CAR!!!

and when i realised i bumped into smtg...i just looked up and said "oh...."

Then everyone just burst out laughing...including myself..

ahhahahahha...oh man,,...how blur am i???

*beaming...

2008-02-08T00:44:00.000+11:00

So proud of myself...=)

hope 'it' doesn't wear off!!!

get there in time!!!

*fingers crossed...

A comedy about growing up... and the bumps along the way

2008-02-05T22:27:00.000+11:00

You must watch "Juno"...It's absolutely Really funny...(like actually funny without being stupid like jim carey...=p)it's serious....it's eye opening....it's sad....it's lively....

I noe this post is kinda long...but if u really appreciate real humour,read it...it's a treat...

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(this just explains the name Juno...ahhaha)

Juno: My dad had this weird obsession with Roman or Greek mythology or something and he decided to name me after Zeus' wife.

Mark: Zeus' wife?

Juno: Well, yeah, I mean he got a lot of lays and stuff but this was his wife and supposedly she was beautiful and really mean. Kind of like Diana Ross.

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Juno: You should've gone to China, you know, 'cause I hear they give away babies like free iPods. You know, they pretty much just put them in those t-shirt guns and shoot them out at sporting events.

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Juno: I think I'm, like, in love with you.

Paulie: You mean as friends?

Juno: No, I mean, like, for real. 'Cause you're, like, the coolest person I've ever met, and you don't even have to try, you know...

Paulie: I try really hard, actually.

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Juno: Yeah, I'm a legend. You know, they call me the cautionary whale.

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[at Juno’s ultrasound]

Leah: Dude that thing looks freaky.

Juno: I am a sacred vessel; all you got in your stomach is taco bell.

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Juno: As far as boyfriends go, Paulie Bleeker is totally boss. He is the cheese to my macaroni.

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Juno: You should try Adderall.

Su-Chin: No thanks. I'm off pills.

Juno MacGuff: Wise move. I know this girl who had a huge crazy freakout because she took too many behavioral meds at once. She took off all her clothes and jumped into the fountain at Ridgedale Mall and she was like, "Blaaaaah! I'm a kraken from the sea!"

Su-Chin: I heard that was you.

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Ultrasound Technician: Well, there it is. Would you like to know the sex of your baby?

Leah: Yes!

Juno: No!

Leah: Pllleease!

Ultrasound Technician: Plenty to be suprised about when you deliver.

Juno: Well, you know, I want Mark and Vanessa to be suprised, and if you tell me, I'll just like, totally ruin it.

Ultrasound Technician: Are Mark and Vanessa your friends at school?

Juno: No, they're the adoptive parents.

Ultrasound Technician: Oh. Well thank God for that.

Bren: Whats that supposed to mean?

Ultrasound Technician: Well, its just that I see a lot of young mothers come through here, its obviously a poisonous environment for a baby.

Juno: Wait a minute! How do you know I'll be such a poisonous environment! How do you know Mark and Vanessa wont be some, crazy, whacked out pedophiles or something?

Leah: Or stage parents?

Bren: They could be utterly incompetent. Theres no guarentee they'll do a better job raising this child than my dumbass step-daughter will... What is your job title?

Ultrasound Technician: I'm an ultrasound technician.

Bren: Oh yeah? Well I'm a nail technician and I think we both ought to just stick to what we know.

Ultrasound Technician: Excuse me?

Bren: Oh, you think you're hot shit 'cause you get to sit over there and play pictionary, well guess what? My five year old daughter could do that and let me tell you, shes not the brightest bulb in the tanning bed. So until you have your own kid, why dont you just go back to nightschool in Manteno and get a real job.

Juno: ...Whoa Bren! You's a dick! I love it!

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Juno: Ow, ow, f***ity-ow! Bren, when do I get that spinal tap thing?

Bren: It's called a spinal block. And you can't have it yet, honey. The doctor said you're not dilated enough.

Juno: You mean I have to wait for it to get worse? Why can't they just give it to me now?

Bren: Well, honey, doctors are sadists who like to play God and watch lesser people scream... [Juno lets out painful scream, Brenda checks her watch]

Bren: S***. [to doctor]

Bren: Hey, can we get my kid the damn spinal tap already?

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Mac (Juno's dad): In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.

Juno: I sort of already have.

Mac: Well, of course! You're old D-A-D! You know I'll always be there to love and support you no matter what kind of pickle you're in... Obviously [nods to her belly]

Juno: I need to go out somewhere just for a little while. I don't have any homework and I swear I'll be back by ten.

Mac: You were talking about me right?

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Hope that gave u a pretty good incentive to watch the movie =)

superman/angel...

2008-02-02T03:20:00.000+11:00

I just wanna scream...

2008-01-31T23:56:00.000+11:00

There's no where to do so...
Take a bottle...
*screams.....all locked in it...
even the bottle is small...
limited volume...
so it escapes...
causes an avalanche..
run...
not fast enough..
buried...
try to dig...
not strong enough..
suffocation...

not enough...

Emerald Dream

2008-01-30T16:56:00.001+11:00

Augustine bought this for me...=p..
a mild yet rejuvenating scent...Thanks...need to say this more often...my dear brother...

in my mind...in my heart...inside where no one can see...only suspect,guess or perhaps assume..

in this time of confusion,frustration and self loathe...simple things like these and eye opening conversations with amazing people are what really guides me through this self inflicted time of suffering...

optimism...=p...too little...still looking for more....*glimmer of hope...hhahaha...

Gardening...

2008-01-28T09:25:00.000+11:00

This has been going on for like 3 or 4 days already...

oh my goodness...sandy,stony,grubby...that's how my feet and arms felt after weeding out the garden...just one and a half months..that's all it takes for a weed...correction...weedS.. to grow from nothing uptill almost adrian's height...

during this...assasination of these pests, i happen to come across plenty of insects which i know would probably bring Louis to girlish screams and force him to stay at a 2 mile radius away from me just in case i had those insects crawling on me...hehhehe =) sorry lou...

here are just some of those insects...well not the first one la..

The arachnid...common house spider...=p...saw a few different types...there was one tiny red one with yellow legs...=p

Aphids....i can tell you for sure that there were MILLIONS of these in my garden..they are smaller than ants...the species in my garden that is..they don't bite or suck your blood or anything but it's really icky when they land on ur leg....*shivers..

Lady bird!!!it's co cute...hehehehe...only saw like 2 or 3...dang...
this is a stink bug...the insect i saw looked alot like this but i can't be too sure if it is this..=)

Flies as u noe are SOOOOOOO ANNOYING in the summer....

Earthworms!!!i held it on my gardening gloves a few time..=p wanted to scare my dad but...oh well..he used to be covered in ants when he went wood collecting so...=p...failed...

hahah...at the end of the day....you see a well maintained garden and for a few days you'll be thinking that it was worth it..

but reality kicks in...I forgot that weeds in Aus start infesting the garden again in about a week...in really large numbers...*sigh...

tribute..

2008-01-26T21:52:00.000+11:00

1979 - 2008

The crew of "A Knight's Tale"...

it's sad to see this actor go...he really "went before his time"..

i first knew him from the movie "A Knight's Tale" which i think everyone must watch!not because of the guy but the movie IS GOOD...seriously!

This is the letter that he wrote to his true love in the film...it's so beautiful...

My Dearest Jocelyn,
It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.
Yours truly, the knight of your heart

This is another heart melting quote...

William : Your name lady, I still need to hear it.
Jocelyn : Sir hunter, you persist.
William : Well perhaps angels have no names, only beautiful faces.

u must watch this movie...hehehe...

Police...singing?

2008-01-26T15:59:00.000+11:00

when i went to University of Melbourne to collect my student card and all, guess what i saw...

A band was playing in front of the library...the band consisted of members of the Victorian police force...SERIOUSLY!!=p...weird...even weirder, the band sounded pretty good!!!

i sorta recorded a minute of their music on my phone...if only i could transfer it...=p

i'm so computer illiterate..

melbourne...

2008-01-26T15:57:00.000+11:00

well...back in melbourne...no cny in kch for me...*sigh....

i so miss kch....so so so so much....

wanna go back home...

*michael buble..Everything...

The perfect moment...

2008-01-14T17:19:00.000+11:00

'My best friend's wedding' is a beautiful portrayal of love and sacrifice.... and these are my 2 favourite moments with one of the most romantic songs in history...=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xaVLbk_3UeU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhgiQnM1ow8&NR=1

Dream...in to reality?

2008-01-14T16:13:00.000+11:00

Oh
I wish that
This world was one world
I wish that
Love ruled on this Earth
That everyone would try
Try to take some time to show
Some kindness
That every life would be
A life that knows
No loneliness
This is my wish

(Chorus)
And I wish that
There would be no wars
And I wish that
No one had to hurt no more
And I wish that
Everyone could see
Only love is worth fighting for
And I wish that
All of us could live
In a world where
All of us could forgive
And I know it's just a dream
But I wish this could be

I wish that
No tears would be cried
I pray that, oh
Peace comes to these times
That love would be the light
That would light our way
Through all the darkness
That all of us could find
The loves to fill
Our hearts with
That is my wish

(Chorus)

Maybe I ask too much
Maybe I shouldn't try
But only faith can take us
Through these troubled times

I wish that
Love ruled on this Earth

And I wish
(And I wish that there would be no wars)
And I wish
(And I wish that no one had to hurt no more)
And I wish
(And I wish that everyone could see only love is worth fighting for)
And I wish that
All of us could live
In a world where
All of us could forgive
And I know it's just a dream, oh
And I know it's just a dream
But I wish this could be

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sy3OwsajKws

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPOBMzMTP4U

Daily Medley...

2008-01-14T15:38:00.000+11:00

Why you have to go and make things so complicated...

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing,
so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear

Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated,
so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment,
fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
[3x]So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Some day,
when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you're lovely,
with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ...
Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ...
Just the way you look tonight.
Mm, Mm, Mm, Mm,
Just the way you look to-night.

Kept coming around and I fell for ya, yeah
Then as time kept going I noticed some things
Said our love kept growing
Wanted to run away cause the situation's in the past
Love never really last
Memories just had a hold of me

But I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me (let it rain)
Cause you helped me open up my eyes
Show me things I could never see (let it rain)
Cause we can fight and we make up
Wanna see you when I wake up
I'm staying with you only (let it rain)
Cause I need you to show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

I use to wonder where were going
And where I wanted to be
Sitting alone all shocked up waiting for my destiny
Hearing songs on the radio wishing that could happen to me, oh no
Then when you came into the picture then I knew quickly
That we could build something so strong
Expect the best for the future
Forget about what used to be
I need you here all life long

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away
All my thoughts seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

‘Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now
You got me feelin like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zjrv36xZ66s

I'll miss you....

My hearts racing...

2008-01-09T16:22:00.000+11:00

i just 'let loose' two big big issues...

will this be my downfall..a disappointment...an amazing feat...the right decision?

only time will tell...

hahaha...can't believe i've started writing again...feels good to be able to fuse words and drawings in a page...

grr....i'm getting nightmares....

15th of Jan...things will change...drastically...

Pls Lord..what am i suppose to be doing now...as my parents say, wait patiently....

THAT'S what i can't seem to achieve....

=p

Rain rain go away, come again another day....

2008-01-05T16:19:00.000+11:00

Rain rain rain....everyday is another gloomy, wet day...

despite having cool weather, it just brings sad memories sometimes, you know...like when you just lie down on your bed and you look out your window..teardrops....thousands of gallons of them are falling from the grey melancholic sky...

the seemingly light-years-away distance between friends and loved ones...occasional feeling of loneliness...times of despair...hurtful events....regrets...loses...

*sneezes...(literally sick)

the rain especially reminds me of having to go home early before cny..grr...

even passing my law test can't cheer me up...*fake smile..

Please, sun...let your rays reign supreme in the sky once again....

Happy New Year!!!

2008-01-01T01:16:00.000+11:00

just an hour and 40 mins to go till the dawn of 2008..

2007- let's do a recap...

IT WAS SO FAST!!!!

all i can remember is studying in aus and spending some time with friends at melbourne...

the past few days have been tiresome and draining..

went for the driving seminar on sunday...stupid latecomers...made me wait an extra hour and a half before the class started...at least Mr. Ono was entertaining and created that upbeat atmosphere...the guy sitting next to me called Ibnul had been driving his motorcycle for 6 years without a license...he even drove to the seminar on his motorbike???he just got a fine and he's still driving...hehe...learnt that he's a soccer player for the past few years...and has ventured all round semenanjung during his matches...which reminds me...need to visit semenanjung...the food in Melaka, the beaches in Terengganu, the shopping in Johor...Malaysia still has plenty to offer...

This morning we went to alison's hse.akmal bought this English Trivial Pursuit...it was freakin hard!!heheh...they asked questions like " what wasthe name of 2 coins used to name the bicycle with a large front wheel and a tiny rear wheel?" the answer is 'penny farthing'...who woul.d know that????hehhee..

after he left we went to tian's hse to play bridge...now van, Siaw and Noel have been introduced to the game, the Bridge clan has expanded!hahahhaha

enough for now....

i just remembered that i have to study for my law this wednesday...500 stinking questions...

=)

Wonders of Christmas...

2007-12-26T12:55:00.000+11:00

Merry Christmas everyone!!
well...today's already the 26th....
past few days have just been crazy...
now i'm just going out loads..friends ..hanging out...just relaxing...

hehe...Augustine got me this really really cute pink tiger from Russ..

got him a pair of gameday soccer socks and perfume -Armani code...I'm so proud that i picked it out...it spells so so so so good....hehhee...got it for my dad too...of course the money comes from mum so it's practically my mum's gift to them..Adrian got a Spongebob stuffed toy form me and a remote control car from Augustine...mum got this set of pans from Tefal...hehehhe could see that gleam upon her face...

hahahhaa....can't believe mike trusted me with his car...at 12.30 am...atleast he was there in the car...btw, sorry again lun...hope i dun scare you like that again...hehhe...dex really thought i drove the car into a ditch..=) i didn't for your information..

Tian's car broke down on the way to magenta!!!what??last thing i'd imagine would happen to Tian..according to mike, it ironically happened when he was accelerating at the traffic light so that he'd be ahead of people..hehehe...

anyway, just helped mike make an oreo cheese cake...yum....it tasted good...just have to wait for the cake to stiffen up in the fridge.hehehhe...funny thing is, yesterday mike tried to bake a california cheese cake yesterday but the butter from the cake mixture leaked out while it was baking...it was because he read the instructions as one a quarter cup of flour instead of one AND a quarter cup of flour...ahahaha...so the cake ended up about a centimetre thick instead of 2 inches (or more) thick... it's ok...admire mike for baking...he's had many successes anyway...including the cream cheese tiramisu he made yesterday (cream cheese with whipped cream, some sweet berry compote and a sponge finger...the combination is scrumptious...*drool...)

can't wait till all of us go out for a nice day together....*dreamy....

In a nutshell..

2007-12-21T13:59:00.000+11:00

A supernova of emotions has just occured in my life...

Everything is just going so fast...REALLY!...time flies...

This concoction of joy, exhilaration, disappointment, frustration, anticipation, annoyance, and excitement is killing me!!!

If life continues this way, i'll have a heart attack by tomorrow!!*laughs...

Keep going...keep striving...keep believing...keep praying...

*sigh....

2007-12-17T08:09:00.000+11:00

*sobs...

*cries...

*sighs...

then i'll have to just get over myself...

disappointment..in myself..experienced by my parents even if they don't admit it...i feel like i've betrayed them.they've worked till their blood and sweat has stained me...the ground i live on...the food i eat...

God...pray that you guide me..just to be grateful and appreciative of the blessings..to learn from mistakes and to rise up from them...not to fall deeper into Satan's hell hole...

most importantly, i want to congratulate Sjane, mtyp, Cel and mel for their excellent results...you gals worked ur butt off and deserve it...*hugs...i'm so proud of them...Louis too....*(even if he can't get the official ENTER, from his grades,he definitely has achieved something to be very proud of...)...mike and khang too!!you guys will be such great engineers...=) Jeremiah...without much effort is still able to pass his physics and get the offer he wants..=p

VCE RESULTS>>>

2007-12-17T04:20:00.001+11:00

well...had a wonderful night...bbq, talking with frens, playing bridge..laughing loads!!!!!!!!!

thanks sally and jasmine for being there for me...feel kinda like a coward...=p..you know what i mean...

anyways, 3 hrs and 35 mins,,,,

till then...

KL

2007-12-10T11:05:00.000+11:00

now i'm here in kl....

freaking plane experiences turbulence so many times....felt like puking..luckily movies kept me company...Stardust is nice!!No reservations as well...=)

i'm such a movies addict..muahahahahha

woohoo!!reached kl night before last night...

seeing that my family of four had TOO much luggage the reception at the budget services told us to get 2 taxis which was bout $135 in total (the other choice was the van which was$180..=p)..me and augustine rode in one taxi while adrian and my mum rode in another...
our REALLY nice and funny cab driver noticed our seperation and revealed that we could have taken one budget taxi which was cheaper!!he told us that that taxi had a modified interior specialised for max of 4 ppl and lots of luggage.grr....

but anyway, we talked bout his experience as a taxi driver...

he was actually previously a BANK MANAGER....i repeat...BANK MANAGER with 9 tellers under him.but the stress and high blood pressure he encountered from all his work led him to quit his job...he then got to know the roads in KL through the tau ket service and then upgraded himself to the airport services...he says he earns MORE money than when he was a BANK MANAGER...hahhaha

what a worth while change...

he told us of one of his regular customers...from Japan.This Japanese couple comes twice a year to KL for two days at a time...2??all the way from japan...an average or RM 5000 EACH for only the PLANE tix...he says he drives them to their hotel from the airport.after a night at the hotel, he would drive them to Genting in which they gamble.then they go back to Japan!altogether , he says, his transportation services cost(with tips) RM500...once, the cab driver asked if he lost or won at Genting and he revealed that he lost RM20,000...that Japanese guy was as quoted "calm and still smiling"!!That couple must be filthy rich!ah...

He told us plenty about his life as a airport taxi driver for the past 2 years...having even to drive to penang and Terengganu before which takes about 4 HOURS each!or even learnt Thai through his Siamese colleagues...frustrations as a taxi drover...for eg. there was once this Iranian family family who asked the taxi driver to carry their bags up 5 floors at their hotel.of course the cab driver refused to seeing that it's not his job and that the bell boy could do it.Then the Iranian said to him," We're Muslims and Muslims help each other." *laughs...The cab drier told him that this is malaysia and we do not discriminate any religion, colour or race!

THAT's a true Malaysian...hehehheh

Anyway, yesterday was ok i guess...ate breaky at the hotel and lazed around in the apartment till 10 o'clock.went to BB plaza and shopped till bout 2...ate lunch...(prawn mee noodle...yum...)then me and my mum headed to back to our shopping(we expanded our vicinity for shopping to Lot 10 as well)till bout 7...then we meet up with my father and bros who went swimming before...
ate dinner and spent the night watching television...

btw...i can't believe i bought heaps today...never expected to..=p

let me see...i bought a shirt from DFO(banana republic with the words 'happiness' on it, 2 hoodies from abercrombie(one is black and white stripped and the other is brown) ,2 dresses(one is bright shocking pink and another with diamond motives printed all over..)...,a pair of nice sandals(black and white..)..erm...hahha...can just imagine it...dunno where in the world will i possible wear the dresses tho...=) is that even heaps?i think to me it is...haahaha

today...will be MEGA MALL DAY!!

i better control myself..otherwise my dad will need to file for bankruptcy soon...