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Doing things APART from studying like
- BOHDS minutes which i still haven't finished
- NCIS invitations which i had to deliver from like 8.30 to 10.20 (inclusive of talking and helping my dent kids out)
- eating crap
- walking to the city to get my train ticket for monday and to get my money order + stamp; ended up only getting the stamp as i didn't have enough cash to get my money order...=_="
- i had a good 60++ mins worth of walking (back and forth from Halls to the town centre plus back and forth from Halls to uni)
- RAM meeting for like 45 mins
- fbing and emailing and MORE emailing
- printing lecture notes (but not reading them)
- Grumbling about lousy internet and printing facilities at Scott Annexe
- MORE talking to people from Halls, randomly, sometimes just to catch up/get to know more new people
- shower in this freaking hot day
- wash my clothes because i had heaps of unwashed clothing
- spilling LOADS of my powdered detergent on the CARPETED floor....(looks like some drug bust happened in my room.....=p)
- folded my clothes which were in my other clothes-drying room since last week...
- writing this blog...

ALL IN LESS THAT 24 HOURS???????pretty amazing if i used that time to study.....
WHY DIDN'T I STUDY?

one thing that struck me today was

while i was walking to the post office, had this little girl running right beside me stop, look left, look left again and she was gonna run straight across the road to her family who was waiting in the car...

A car was going to turn into the road that little girl and i were going to cross...that old lady driving this huge 4-wheel drive was so sure that the girl WASN'T going to cross that she just looked right and stepped on the accelerator...

My hand instinctively shot out at the girls arm and grabbed hold of it...

Thankfully, she didn't think i was a kidnapper and no scream was evident.lol.

That forward resistance that i felt right after i held her arm scared me...

I might just be over thinking this situation but i thank God that i was His instrument in preventing such a catastrophe..

"thank you" =)

I never give you my pillow.....

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life

~

All the details in the fabric?
Are the things that make you panic?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow?
Hell, no reason, go on and scream.
If you're shocked, it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing...

~

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

~

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Golden slumbers fill your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye
Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Boy you're gonna carry that weight, carry that weight for a long time
Boy you're gonna carry that weight, carry that weight for a long time

I never give you my pillow, I only send you my invitations

And in the middle of the celebrations, I break down

Oh yeah, all right, are you gonna be in my dreams tonight?
Love you..........

And in the end, the love you take, is equal to the love, you make

Baby, baby, baby ohhh......

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

~Anna Nalick

If it kills me...

Running around like a chuke which had been caged for years...

Tons of paperwork to do but i'm still blogging, Fbing and taking every little time i have to do OTHER stuff...

Fear is my only barrier...

But anyway...

The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
~Psalm 27:1

So let's get to it...
=)

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Skinny love

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?





poignant...poetic...cuts deep..

Gentleman don't....

You run your fingers across my lips
No I've never felt like this before, no, no
Well I know I'm young but I've known love
And I'd know I know an angel if I saw one

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words...

I'm just a simple man, simple plans,
Good work, take care of my fam,
I'm sure you understand
Because you're heaven sent, independent,
Well do you think you need me?
I think I need you girl, baby can't you see?

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your words...

No no no...I won't, I won't

Cards on the table
Willing and able
Stable, capable
Of holding you down
I'm just sayin...
I'm not complainin' your love is worth waiting for

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words...

~Gabe Bondoc