one day...

 when I can possibly earn enough money to give my mum something like this for her birthday.....
just a little something

my mum is just ..... the most dedicated person i've ever seen.
in her work, in loving her children, in making us the best people we can be, and in praying...
strong-hearted and sentimental but yet, always keeping her emotions to herself.
love it when she smiles and laughs. it elicits an instant joy in me when my mum is happy.

My dad?
where can i even begin. he is so similar yet distinctly different to my mother.
He's the one who speaks out loud his feelings; the words that my mother doesn't say yet "tells" us in her own way. like my mum, he diligent prays.
He IS definitely the MOST optimistic and generous person that i know. SERIOUSLY.







i can never find the RIGHT words to say in any card that i've made them...
2010's card is still not made yet and i have to struggle to express indescribable gratitude to my parents.
Though we are just a speck in God's unbelievably huge universe, without Him, my parents, my family, and my friends, i wouldn't even be the speck i am today...

Love is the ONLY best thing I can give. better do THAT well.

wars, terminal illness, car accident, endless list....

7 days...

~Matthew 4:1-11~

~James 1:13~

When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone;

~Proverbs 29:23~

A man's pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor.

~1 Corinthians 10:13~ 

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

when the time comes...

... it sucks when you fail to put up your best even if you have all the goods in mind.

There is always next time.

But there comes a time when you're out of time.

Tick tock tick tock*

Time seems to be a recurring theme, doesn't it...And yet, there's so little of it.

You're mad, bonkers, off your head! But I'll tell you a secret: 

.......All the best people are ;)

Do you remember the time...

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date:

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade

Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;

Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou growest:

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you....

Stars shining bright above you;
Night breezes seem to whisper – love you?
Birds singing in the sycamore tree.
Dream a little dream of me.

Say nighty-night and kiss me;
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
While I'm alone, blue as can be,
Dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you..
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you.
But in your dreams, whatever they be,
Dream a little dream of me

I'd love to go to prison now....

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1986002,00.html?xid=newsletter-daily

Flabbergasted was my first reaction....

sweet tooth..........

Masterchef is so going to make me fat.....
salivating when it hit the thai grilled prawns and then this.....

drop dead gorgeous - crusty on the outside, goey and marshmellowy on the inside, not forgetting those passionfruit pips - the best part!

too good to resist should i be offered one....

14 and a half hrs to go.....

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will
counsel you and watch over you."
- Psalm 32:8


"Whosoever trusteth in the Lord,
happy is he."
- Proverbs 16:20

-

lost like 95% of my research 1 min after waking up.....

0.o

Hate being Tiffany right now.......

10 mins evolved to 1 hr and 15 mins of helping some first year with his essay....

she borrowed her friend a very important book (instead of asking it back from her, it became an overnight loan) which tiff needs for this assignment due on Sat that she's barely written...

sitting here thinking how stupid tiff is....

what the crap IS she doing...

Lost in a dream..

<3 this version

What about Japanese men.........

Very interesting...watched this tv report just then....
http://www.abc.net.au/7.30/content/2010/s2864558.htm

My summary.....

The masculinity of Japanese men has degraded evolved from the dignified kamikaze-rather-die-than-surrender extremity to a high maintenance, self-indulgent one.....

Current biodata of a typical Japanese male:
- Spoiling themselves
- No interest in relationships, only materialistic and career-driven goals
(A recent survey found that one third of Japanese men aged between 20 and 34 had never even had a girlfriend, because most weren't even interested)
- <3s things like strawberry tea, manicures, going to the saloon, sweets... Mens bras - a lucrative industry...(who would've thought...) "[seller talking about client] when he wears the bra, he said he feels calm.." "Herbivorous" men vs. "Carnivorous" women Type "japanese men" on Google and see what comes up..........

Flabbergasted...

inspired or just plain lazy/procrastinator

You can obviously tell which is from the BBQ i had with some cousins and the other that i've kinda made just 2 hrs ago just so i can NOT do work...sigh...

Lingering on my tongue....
the taste of the sashimi dipped in soy and wasabi....the fresh salad louis made rich in tomatoes,capsicum, bacon strips, sauteed mushrooms, lemon juice, rocket & lettuce leaves and lovely halves of hard-boiled egg to complete it....the salty buttered, crisp corn on the cob....the beautifully grilled fresh prawns...the bulgogi flavoured beef strips...finale - ing with Charmaines crunchy-on-the-outside-and-fudgy-in-its-centre brownies with cookies & cream ice cream...

what a bbq
ANYWAY, mine tasted good....? hmm....not often do i cook which is an accomplishment in itself!

Medium rare lamb cutlets - which were tenderized and flavoured in the garlic, olive oil and rosemary marinade - on top of a bed of wilted symphony of spinach es...

topped off with my mum's kick-arse fresh chilli paste which i stirred into a tangy mint sauce, that lamb was heaven....

Know you want some, dad...mum can ALWAYS cook better for you...=)Hope your headache is gone and that Sibu's hotel treats you decently...=p

and now back to reality and the realisation that holidays are drawing to a close...*meh..

No laughs at God when....

~*~

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor
No one laughs at God when the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one's laughing at God when it's gotten real late and their kid's not back from that party yet

No one laughs at God when their airplane starts to uncontrollably shake
No one's laughing at God when they see the one they love hand in hand with someone else and they hope that they're mistaken
No one laughs at God when the cops knock on their door and they say, "We've got some bad new, sir"
No one's laughing at God when there's a famine, fire or flood

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they've lost all they got and they don't know what for
No one laughs at God on the day they realize that the last sight they'll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes
No one's laughing at God when they're saying their goodbyes

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke
God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one's laughing at God in a hospital
No one's laughing at God in a war

No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
We're all laughing with God


~*~

human.
worldly ways.
the superficiality of praying/our intentions.
Your love is too prodigious.
help us to love more like You.

~*~

*no comment

you'd think that after spraining an ankle and having your torn ligament injury come back in a period of 1 month was bad enough....

1. stone covered (=Very uneven) path
2. steep downhill
2. old runners
3. hot day
4. fatigue

= sprain ankle while walking slowly might i add....

i can't even believe it myself...

using a cold orange (with its skin on ofcourse)to numb it now..lol

31 days in June

Tonight was the best decision i've made all week...lol

looking back on tonight's events...

Training back to Melbourne on the 2.28pm train was itself a long eventful trip...Sue's continuous "biting" of my arms, hilarious pictures, lame jokes, (me dozing off thus exposing me to horridious pictures- i can imagine), and ofcourse, great company Sue , Sarah and Christine!

Got checked upon by public transportation officers in the train to Glenny, walked to Sue's quaint house and changed. Both Sue and Sarah looked like they were "dressed like Zee Avi".

Now moving on to the interesting part:
eating...

Went to Petaling Jaya and we ordered respectively Tear drop noodle with minced pork and black fungi, char Kueh Tiaw and Wanton noodles while i curi-curi had the stir fry noodles from Halls last night!lol...

*ahem ahem - then Christine mentioned how hot one of the waiters looked. This catalysed a whole new debate on how Sue thought ANOTHER waiter who wasn't on duty was more hot and that the one that Christine had her eyes on was way too jock-ish. But oh well...the guy was DEFINITELY interested in her - sneaky glances at her, regular pointless walks past our table, an obvious focus on Christine when he poured us all tea - "Ladies, can i fill up your tea?" - whilst looking at Christine...
Definitely plan to come back here again to see if the guy has the nerve to ask her out..LOL

Next, we rushed to Northcote thinking that we were late...Chai - Sue's brother kindly gave us a lift there since he was going to watch Zee Avi with us! It was a full moon that night which we took as a good sign, right? RIGHT!
We did get lost for a little while and then parked a few blocks from the club BUT we ended up early anyway cause although the ticket said 7.30 start, it was actually 8 =p

OH OH OH!

While we were lining up to have out tickets checked, Zee Avi walked past! She was pretty discreet but i kinda ruined that...since Sarah, Sue, Christine and Chai didn't see her, i was frantically trying to get them to turn around to get a glimpse of her...
As she walked up the stairs to their rooms, i'm guessing, i impulsively called out to her, "Do you mind if i could take a picture with you?"
LOL
AND she replied," I'll be around after the show!" in a cheery voice...

Sarah and Sue were like "eeeeeeeeeeee.....she talked to you!"

hahaha...

Let's skip the part where we camwhored for a while after getting to sit on the floor in front of the stage (2nd row) and Sue/Christine buying merchandise from the stall set up there.

Zee Avi began with an acapella of a song which i didn't recognise - perhaps a cover or smtg...then she brough the crowd to start snapping thus bringing us to her first original song of the night, "Poppy".

Then she sang a cover song, "Slow Hands" by Interpol (which she made a joke out of based on her malaysian and internatioinal/interpool fans lol) which was hauntingly lovely...


~*~
Yeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
And I might stop and look upon your face
Disappears in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violet blaze

Can't you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, we slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself now

I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice cause the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms and grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You makes me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad of ways that I love you

Can you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
Killer for hire, you know not yourself

We spies, we slow hands
You out the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
We retire like nobody else
We spies, intimate slow hands
Killer for hire you know not yourself
We spies, intimate slow hands
You let the face slap around the self
~*~

Then she sang "Honeybee" which she mentioned was her only love song and that she's lost "it" to write more love ones..Although not one of my FAV of her songs, it was still a lovely sing along song...

"Bitter Heart" began with a chic acapella of verse one and flowing into an acoustic version. One guy in the crowd sang "of mine......" too early which made him Zee Avi's target in getting him to sing the line when the time came.Sue, Sarah and I sang the loudest that night i think....since we know her lyrics pretty well..

She introduced her next (NEW) song by sharing the origin of this song:

Her friend was telling her how she'd spent 31 days in June homeless in the US....LOL
she 'asked' if she could borrow that one liner for her song - which was about adapting to a place and about your consciousness. On the other hand, "You COULD treat this as your lover kind of thing, if you wanted to?" ~Zee Avi =)

This song was amazing...loved the plucking pattern in this song and the lyrics are really awesome as well...

Moving on to her ukulele, she announced that "Just You and Me" was the first song she wrote on a ukelele. Singing along was the BOMB! where's the fun without the sing along!

And finally ending the night with Kantoi!

This performance is WAY WAY too short.Still in awe of the whole package: the vocals, the quality of the music, the emotions - overflowing actually, the ambience and the talent shining through the uniquely written songs...

After her exit from the stage, we waited for her to come to the merchandise table where we lined up to take a picture/autograph from her...
A guy infront of Christine and Sarah was totally hitting on her,talking to her for QUITE some time and the most outrageous thing was him picking up Zee Avi's hand gently and kissing it!!!!!!! (Christine and I then saw him walking up the stairs like he was stuck to Zee Avi with glue or smtg....)

creepy stalker material...

But yeah....Matt Costa is pretty ok...atleast we got a picture with him? lol
Mr Pitiful and a few other songs were amongst my favs but yeah....=)

I miss watching Zee Avi now....=p

"*snap snap snap snap

My baby....."

Counting down to zee avi which is like in less than 24hrs!woo hoo!

Thanks to those wonderful people who introduced me to this amazing singer/song-writer from Malaysia - Miri i might add...

"Just you and me...."

~*~

Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in

I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed you had gone again

I love you more than songs can say
But i can't keep running after yesterday

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye

I hope it's not...

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

~*~

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

~*~

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity