Thoughts

Why is it that everytime i do something, i always come up short of a success or even a pass...

Is it wrong to spend some alone time with myself to dwell in my daily routine or thoughts or just not think about anything?

Or perhaps I am just the wrong person to talk to when I can't handle a situation...

Will i ever fell comfortable with someone without worrying what to say cause i'm terrified of uttering words that might hurt the broken heart AND vice versa...I'm starting to think that those 'dreams' are just the rubbish of the brilliant minds in this world...

i wonder...

i just wonder...

always feeling inferior..

always feel like life's just dragging on..

there's no will nor eyes for the prize anymore...

just a stagnant feeling of emptiness...

BBQ!!!

tonight rocked!!

youth actually organized a bbq but they didnt have a venue so michelle(my cuzzy!!)asked my mum if they could use our place so that's how it was...

First i have to make some shoutouts!!

Kevin is this really handy guy who brought all the bbq stuff(inclusive of the coal and the equipment like the skewers and the thing where u actually cook the lamb skewers on!!),cooked the bbq for all of us (inclusive of starting the fire and heating up the coals...and the cleaning up too!!)AND he baked a cake!multi purpose guy...too nice too..he refused to give my cousin the receipts so that the youth could divide the cost and pay him...*tsk tsk...We ALL owe it to him for the great food!Thank you!!!your efforts, generousity and time inspires us all to be more gentleman-like and we appreciate it!!!

next to Xin!who never fails to organize everything from the youth's transportation(especially Andrew!) to the trivia questions which he must have spent hours meticulously created in power point form...he even brought the projector and everything!!because of your planning and dedication to EMYF,tonight we all had fun in our 'friendly competition'!!As team 1 won(go team 1!!!!!i was in this group..hehehhe),i would like to say an extra thank you!!!hehehhe...can't believe Adrian was his assistant...hehehe...Adrian was like running round collecting our answer sheets and marking them for the teams so that Xin could calculate the final score for the teams...hope he wasn't a nuisance tho...hehhe..So once again..Thank you Xin for always being the roots of EMYF,making sure that everything runs smoothly..oh ya!congrats on the success of the camp you organized last holiday!!!hahah...knew you could do it!

ok...lets get to the details of the bbq!!

firstly,kevin and felicia(my other cuzzy!!) came with all the food and equipment and we started cooking...then slowly ppl came in with food like pita bread and crackers with a delicious variety of dips(homus,advocado,tomato salsa,chilli cream cheese,...i think there's a garlicy or onion one but they all tasted so good....yummmm),then there's the yummy fruit pastry and lemon slices that rei jing made...crap!!!they r SO SO SO good...she's an amazing chef but as always,she hides her true potential under that modesty...then there's the salads,CHAR KUEH TIAU!!!!!(smoky flavour incuded too...*droool....)then there's the peach,pancetta,rocket,mint and chedddar cheese salad with the balsamic vinagrette...albert cooked it up in my house..(i had to be his kitchen hand...=p)it was lovely too...
but best of all was the yummy yummy meats on skewers..lamb,chicken wings and sausages....that was the works of kevin...yummmy....he used curry powder and a sprinke of chilli powder to give it that kick...that is the true taste of bbq!!

the trivia was good!!!see if you know the answer to these question!!i think i remember some...
1. name any 3 Scandinavian countries.
2.currently,who are the first three seeds in the tennis field for men?(in order)
3.who has made made headlines in his career of racing sports cars for the past 15 years?
4.what is the capital of cuba?
5.how many medals did Ian Thorpe win in the Athens Olympics?
6.How many world cup football titles have Brazil won so far?
7.who was the American born scientist who was born in Milan,Ohio in the year 1847?
8.who was the women who won gold for the singles title in the french open in 2005?
9.The prison Al Catraz is found of the coast of what state in the USA?

10.In which country is the world's 3rd longest river situated?
11.Which country has a population of 300 million?
12.What is the capital of Spain?
13.Which country is the Cathedral of Notre Dame situated in?
14.Who is this famous person?
15.Who is this famous figure?
16.What country does this flag represent?
17.in AFL footbal, how many points does a team score if the team made 12 goals and 7 behinds?

Apart from that...i can't remember at the moment..hehehhei need to get pictured from Michelle and Victor since he took tons!hope to get them soon so that i can post it up on my blog...sorry ppl!!!

kinda tired now...need to get sleep...will continue tomorrow night or smtg...hehehe..try the trivia?i'll post the answers another time...heheh..or maybe now...way below....hehhe..
Enjoy the trivia!!!going to sleep now...*Yawn....

*muaks blog...
























Answers:
1.Sweden, Denmark, Finland
2.Federer,Nadal,Roddick
3.Michael Schumacer
4.Havana
5.4 medals
6.5 titles
7.Thomas Edison
8.Justine Henin-Hardenne
9.Off the coast of San Fransico
10.China
11.USA
12.Madrid
13.Paris
14.Aung San Suu Kyi
15.Winston Churhcill
16.Solomon Islands
17.79

i'm going out of my mind..

i dont get it..i freaking blame myself...but then why?that's the question..why?

i know that i've never experienced some of life's tragedies...and i know that i have absolutely NO IDEA what some people have gone through...
i try to help..
i do my best...
but still..my 'efforts'...or more known as petty trials...are undermined..trampled...overshadowed by accusations...savaged by thoughts of the negative intentions of others..exaggerated as it may seem..that's how i feel...i can't make the pain go away..no one can....unless I'm God...sometimes i wish i was...

perhaps i was never good enough..

never will be...didn't know it could come down to this....

this nuclear like explosion of anger and confusion...

indulge your funny bone

it may sound obscene but it is seriously funny...=) Before i continue i would just like to put a disclaimer that these jokes were not meant to hurt anyone and that it it not directed to any particular party or individual.

Tight Skirt, Bus Stop

One day, at a bus stop there was a girl who was wearing a skintight miniskirt. When the bus arrived and it was her turn to get on, she realized that her skirt was so tight she couldn't get her foot high enough to reach to step.

Thinking it would give her enough slack to raise her leg, she reached back and unzipped her skirt a little. She still could not reach the step. Embarrassed, she reached back once again to unzip it a little more. Still, she couldn't reach the step.

So, with her skirt zipper halfway down, she reached back and unzipped her skirt all the way. Thinking that she could get on the step now, she lifted up her leg only to realize that she still couldn't reach the step.

So, seeing how embarrassed the girl was, the man standing behind her put his hands around her waist and lifted her up on to the first step of the bus. The girl turned around furiously and said, "How dare you touch my body that way, I don't even know you!"

Shocked, the man says, "Well, ma'am, after you reached around and unzipped my fly three times, I kinda figured that we were friends."

Annoying Boy on Bus

A little kid walks into a city bus and sits right behind the driver and starts yelling, ''If my dad was a bull and my mom a cow I'd be a little bull.''

The driver starts getting mad at the noisy kid, who continues with, ''If my dad was an elephant and my mom a girl elephant I would be a little elephant.''

The kid goes on with several animals until the bus driver gets angry and yells at the kid, ''What if your dad was a drunk and your mom was a prostitute?!''

The kid smiles and says, ''I would be a bus driver!''

I Like Your Thinking

A teacher asks her class, ''If there are 5 birds sitting on a fence and you shoot one of them, how many will be left?'' She calls on little Johnny.

''None, they all fly away with the first gunshot.''

The teacher replies, ''The correct answer is 4, but I like your thinking.'' Then Little Johnny says, ''I have a question for YOU. There are three women sitting on a bench having ice cream. One is delicately licking the sides of the triple scoop of ice cream. The second is gobbling down the top and sucking the cone. The third is biting off the top of the ice cream.Which one is married?''

The teacher, blushing a great deal, replies, ''Well I suppose the one that's gobbled down the top and sucked the cone."

"The correct answer is the one with the wedding ring on.....but I like your thinking."

Why Dicks Are Unfortunate

10. You've got a hole in your head.
9. Your master strangles you all the time.
8. Your head is disproportionate to the rest of your body.
7. You shrink in cold water.
6. You never get a haircut.
5. You always hang around with two nuts.
4. Your closest neighbor is an asshole.
3. Your best friend is a pussy.
2. Your scalp gets cut off if you're Jewish.
And the number one reason why it sucks to be a dick:
1. Every time you get excited, you throw up.

Blonde in a boat There was a blonde driving down the road one day. She glanced to her right and noticed another blonde sitting in a nearby field, rowing a boat with no water in sight. The blonde angrily pulled her car over and yelled at the rowing blonde, “What do you think you're doing? It's things like this that give us blondes a bad name. If I could swim, I'd come out there and kick your butt!”

synonyms of stupid

imbecile
pea-brained....(actually no-brain)
dumb ass
dick head
idiot
insanely oblivious to my surroundings
unbelievably unintellegent
otak udang
seperti katak di bawah a bottomless pit....
blonde(no offence to blondes...all my blonde friends are actually damn smart)
dick head
fool
nincompoop
jackass
numbskull
moron
airhead
bird brain
donkey(don't mean you chee if you are reading this...refering to myself =))
bovine
slow

what i'm feeling now?
down in the dumps
crappy
miserable
dispirited
dismal
upset

till next time...
sorry bout the depression..
next blog entry will definitely be more....'vibrant'!

Must-see links!

here are a few youtube links that u MUST MUST MUST watch....

1.i couldn't believe that this voice was coming out of this 11 year old!blown away....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCmo3oQHaf4

2.you could look at this in two ways-one,it's so cool!!!! two-it's so funny!!!!!hehehhehe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tRd2C0F13M&NR=1

3.this one is lame...but i thought it was a little funny...hmm...i can touch my nose with my tongue too so does that make me a zero???=p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWJJBwKhvp4

will be back...gotta eat dinner now....-=p
*muaks....

Dilemma

Sometimes you know that you need to be there for someone you love and hold dearly to your heart...but the biggest issue is - how do you help them if you've never felt or experienced the pain that they've gone through. That is by far one of the most undesirable feelings that i've experienced...

you try to say something to make them feel better but then you hesitate...what if you inflict even more pain to their already-stabbed-countlessly-heart..or perhaps destroy the relationship that you and that person has developed in just a matter of second by muttering just a few innocuous words....all i should do is to shut my mouth up and to listen and just lend him or her a shoulder to lean on...an embracing sanctuary to escape into for just a few moments so that their troubles would be a million miles away..

pray that it gets better for all of us..to be strong whenever we some face to face with the monsters that dwell beneath our beds...the waves that crash upon the helpless ship in the middle of a storm or even the nerve-wrecking-brainteasing exams we student have to sit for during our school life...

helping someone you love is always on the top of our list of things to do or our priorities...i guess we can only do the best we can ...to our own abilities and strengths that we try to break the barriers that your loved ones try to build around themselves to block people from getting to the root of their sufferings..it is our determination that must prevail in order to ensure that they do not fall into the darkness of isolation, depression and self pity..it is the worst feeling ever..persevere in showing your care and sincerity towards his or her problems and maybe, JUST MAYBE he or she would finally pick up the courage to reveal their deepest most darkest secret that has been bottled up in their tormented soul...

remember that love for a family member, a friend, a partner or even a stranger can make the biggest difference in the world...

Way Back Into Love

Hugh Grant as Alex fletcher and Drew Barrymore as Sophie Fisher...
Haley Bennet as Cora Corman

this song really means something...really meaningful lyrics...here it!download it but best of all,watch the movie and you'll know why the song really is special!!

Lyrics
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

Hear it on youtube!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1T1__d7oVfA&mode=related&search=

Watch the movie!!!!you won't regret it-even if jeremiah did...=)

Holidays - YIA!!! & *sigh

Finally the holidays are here!!!
I just figured out that i freaking changed my answer in the physics SAC to a wrong one...ARGGG!!!and i spent so much time on it(atleast 10 mins) getting to circle the correct answer to finally rub it out and waste it in 2 seconds....grr.....

whatever!!!

Anyway,this weekend is just relax relax relax b4 i have to face the weekdays when i HAVE to start studying(IF i can discipline myself-which will definitely be a challenge...) went to the movies on friday with sjane,jeremiah and steven cause we had to wait for the others to finish school...hahaha jeremiah and sjane were arguing bout which movie to watch and so forth(those two really "hate" each other...hehhehee nola. it's their way of communicating. we finally got to an agreement(after bout 15 mins...*sweat)that we would be watching 'music and lyrics' which turned out to be a great choice(except for jeremiah which he found was dead boring-steven sjane and i begged to defer...)

then headed of the jeremiah's place where he hit a period of chaos...hehe..
1.had to get his sweater coz the wind was getting freezingly out of hand
2.he had to give his frens some stuff but ended up locking himself out while his keys and the survey form he was supposed to circulate inside his room
3.he had to wait for the receptionist to open his door for him(she questioned his responsibility -jeremiah cursed after that it was his first offence and that the receptionist was also a new personnel which makes her all the more incompetent)
4.he had to pay $2.20 for the 'trouble'...

went to hang at tian's place where sjane found her place on the couch to rest her eyes.i ended up on tian's balcony talking with the rest while the biting wind got our fingers and toes numb to the bone...=p but the view was incredible!!

so in the end the group consisted of sjane,jeremiah,tian,erich,diana(erich's *ahem ahem*),likhui and i...(steven went to have dinner with his sister and a fren's last minute birthday party...)went to red silk to have dinner...

we actually decided to go to Max Brenner to have dessert so we walked to the one at QV but it was too full...then the one at Melbourne Central which was ALSO too full then finally we went to Koko Black(Lygon Street) to then we had to wait for 15 plus plus mins to get a table for the seven of us...the ice cream i had was heavenly...but after a while the chocolate got a little to rich but it was too good to waste...(*bloat)...

that night was fun....
can't wait to go over to Chrytabelle's house next week to sleep over!!

Woohoo!!
my first sleepover =p *blush...i've only slept at my grandma's house which is like 3 houses away...not counted...=p

Anyway,going to have a dinner tonight at my house with my cousins coming over for beef noodle soup...yumm....

have to study tomorrow...Noooo!!!!...atleast i have cross country club activities...gonna play dodge ball, do aerobics and even pilates!!yippee...only twice a week though..

i so envy people who're going home this holidays!get to hang out with our ex classmates and all..
GOOD LUCK to all you going-for-JPA-scholarship-interview people k??

Love tiff...