Thursday, September 11, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
faces of boredom
Headshot
Disgusted- there was a caterpillar on the strawberry that i could have possibly eaten...*puke
muahahahaha...
Raining...is it worth the tears?
oh no! i'm showing everyone my pig-covered pjs...
hmm...is this how i'd look after a bashing?
(i noe...really pathetic attempt at Paint)
hmm...wondering about my next move...
music & messWednesday, September 3, 2008
irremovable scars..
Was sitting in the Prince Philip Theatre dreading boring old Experimental Design & Data Analysis when my delightful friend *Kristen (who i havent seen for ages!) rocked up for this lecture!
She's this lovely girl from a foreign country..cultured, friendly, open & adorable!
of course we began the usual but desired regime on "how are you?!"s and all that...
how she's been lazy (like the rest of us...lols), how she's coping with a lonely life here in Melbourne, how her studies are going and so on....
amidst our full-of-laughter-but-partially-shushed-due-to-the-lecture conversation, she starts talking about her bf and her weekly (WEEKLY!) visits to *Adelaide to meet her boyfriend!
I was going "awhhh...." at first but then here comes the bomb shell...
Her face tells it all..As she tries to hide her true feelings, i notice glimpses of HER through that cracked mask...glints of fear, sadness, disappointment, exhaustion, anxiety....but she's been practising putting on her "makeup"...the "concealer" works well to strangers...
She begins revealing how her "kind & really nice" bf has been hitting her...
I was immediately paralysed...
She then goes on about her bf's anger explosions that eventually lead to her being bashed up...
The punching bag as we would call it..She tells me of her bruises on her body (if she'd showed me ,it'd be even more heartbreaking...) She ever so calmly tells me of her visits to the doctor who even advised her to report this dire issue to the authorities...
What could anyone do?
She said she loved him. Even casually joked that she won't go see him this time so that he'd feel guilty. She mentioned how he begged for her forgiveness when she told him that breaking up was what she wanted...how he promised her that he'd stop his aggression once and for all but....(predictably..) in her last visit, he failed to keep his end of the bargain in this relationship...To the point where he (quote) "hit me(*Kirsten) in front of my sister.."
I was absolutely speechless....i've never had a friend who's been in such an ....(hate to say...)...abusive relationship...
Dumbfounded, i only manage to repeat to her to be really careful...asked her if her parents knew and shockingly-yes was her answer...she exclaimed how angry her mum was but i didnt ask if her mother actually did anything about it...Asked if she'd made up her mind on breaking up, she was still hesitant and indecisive...
The lecture soon came to a close...this was glued/stapled/plastered/caged/locked up in my mind...
As she walked out, i said be careful one last time...And that no one...absolutely NO ONE deserves to be hit like that...and that she deserves the best...She thanked me and left...
With her back facing me, i thought to myself - what a strong woman...still attending university, continuing with her life...
She really does deserve better...
=(
* name and location has been changed to keep identities secret
She's this lovely girl from a foreign country..cultured, friendly, open & adorable!
of course we began the usual but desired regime on "how are you?!"s and all that...
how she's been lazy (like the rest of us...lols), how she's coping with a lonely life here in Melbourne, how her studies are going and so on....
amidst our full-of-laughter-but-partially-shushed-due-to-the-lecture conversation, she starts talking about her bf and her weekly (WEEKLY!) visits to *Adelaide to meet her boyfriend!
I was going "awhhh...." at first but then here comes the bomb shell...
Her face tells it all..As she tries to hide her true feelings, i notice glimpses of HER through that cracked mask...glints of fear, sadness, disappointment, exhaustion, anxiety....but she's been practising putting on her "makeup"...the "concealer" works well to strangers...
She begins revealing how her "kind & really nice" bf has been hitting her...I was immediately paralysed...
She then goes on about her bf's anger explosions that eventually lead to her being bashed up...
The punching bag as we would call it..She tells me of her bruises on her body (if she'd showed me ,it'd be even more heartbreaking...) She ever so calmly tells me of her visits to the doctor who even advised her to report this dire issue to the authorities...
What could anyone do?
She said she loved him. Even casually joked that she won't go see him this time so that he'd feel guilty. She mentioned how he begged for her forgiveness when she told him that breaking up was what she wanted...how he promised her that he'd stop his aggression once and for all but....(predictably..) in her last visit, he failed to keep his end of the bargain in this relationship...To the point where he (quote) "hit me(*Kirsten) in front of my sister.."
I was absolutely speechless....i've never had a friend who's been in such an ....(hate to say...)...abusive relationship...
Dumbfounded, i only manage to repeat to her to be really careful...asked her if her parents knew and shockingly-yes was her answer...she exclaimed how angry her mum was but i didnt ask if her mother actually did anything about it...Asked if she'd made up her mind on breaking up, she was still hesitant and indecisive...
The lecture soon came to a close...this was glued/stapled/plastered/caged/locked up in my mind...
As she walked out, i said be careful one last time...And that no one...absolutely NO ONE deserves to be hit like that...and that she deserves the best...She thanked me and left...
With her back facing me, i thought to myself - what a strong woman...still attending university, continuing with her life...
She really does deserve better...
=(
* name and location has been changed to keep identities secret
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Sometimes...
Sometimes there are times when things just don't fall into Place... Right now, i'm thinking ...pondering... About not achieving what I really yearned for... Nothing can turn back the clocks... Enough said, it was my fault for not Digesting the advice & warnings and acting on it..
Anger,frustration... Not today....not today... Keep calm, stay optimistic... Learn from your mistakes... Enough regret, look forward...
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