one day...

 when I can possibly earn enough money to give my mum something like this for her birthday.....
just a little something

my mum is just ..... the most dedicated person i've ever seen.
in her work, in loving her children, in making us the best people we can be, and in praying...
strong-hearted and sentimental but yet, always keeping her emotions to herself.
love it when she smiles and laughs. it elicits an instant joy in me when my mum is happy.

My dad?
where can i even begin. he is so similar yet distinctly different to my mother.
He's the one who speaks out loud his feelings; the words that my mother doesn't say yet "tells" us in her own way. like my mum, he diligent prays.
He IS definitely the MOST optimistic and generous person that i know. SERIOUSLY.







i can never find the RIGHT words to say in any card that i've made them...
2010's card is still not made yet and i have to struggle to express indescribable gratitude to my parents.
Though we are just a speck in God's unbelievably huge universe, without Him, my parents, my family, and my friends, i wouldn't even be the speck i am today...

Love is the ONLY best thing I can give. better do THAT well.

wars, terminal illness, car accident, endless list....

7 days...

~Matthew 4:1-11~

~James 1:13~

When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone;

~Proverbs 29:23~

A man's pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor.

~1 Corinthians 10:13~ 

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

when the time comes...

... it sucks when you fail to put up your best even if you have all the goods in mind.

There is always next time.

But there comes a time when you're out of time.

Tick tock tick tock*

Time seems to be a recurring theme, doesn't it...And yet, there's so little of it.

You're mad, bonkers, off your head! But I'll tell you a secret: 

.......All the best people are ;)

Do you remember the time...

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date:

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade

Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;

Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou growest:

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you....

Stars shining bright above you;
Night breezes seem to whisper – love you?
Birds singing in the sycamore tree.
Dream a little dream of me.

Say nighty-night and kiss me;
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
While I'm alone, blue as can be,
Dream a little dream of me.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you..
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you.
But in your dreams, whatever they be,
Dream a little dream of me

I'd love to go to prison now....

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1986002,00.html?xid=newsletter-daily

Flabbergasted was my first reaction....

sweet tooth..........

Masterchef is so going to make me fat.....
salivating when it hit the thai grilled prawns and then this.....

drop dead gorgeous - crusty on the outside, goey and marshmellowy on the inside, not forgetting those passionfruit pips - the best part!

too good to resist should i be offered one....

14 and a half hrs to go.....

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will
counsel you and watch over you."
- Psalm 32:8


"Whosoever trusteth in the Lord,
happy is he."
- Proverbs 16:20

-

lost like 95% of my research 1 min after waking up.....

0.o

Hate being Tiffany right now.......

10 mins evolved to 1 hr and 15 mins of helping some first year with his essay....

she borrowed her friend a very important book (instead of asking it back from her, it became an overnight loan) which tiff needs for this assignment due on Sat that she's barely written...

sitting here thinking how stupid tiff is....

what the crap IS she doing...

Lost in a dream..

<3 this version

What about Japanese men.........

Very interesting...watched this tv report just then....
http://www.abc.net.au/7.30/content/2010/s2864558.htm

My summary.....

The masculinity of Japanese men has degraded evolved from the dignified kamikaze-rather-die-than-surrender extremity to a high maintenance, self-indulgent one.....

Current biodata of a typical Japanese male:
- Spoiling themselves
- No interest in relationships, only materialistic and career-driven goals
(A recent survey found that one third of Japanese men aged between 20 and 34 had never even had a girlfriend, because most weren't even interested)
- <3s things like strawberry tea, manicures, going to the saloon, sweets... Mens bras - a lucrative industry...(who would've thought...) "[seller talking about client] when he wears the bra, he said he feels calm.." "Herbivorous" men vs. "Carnivorous" women Type "japanese men" on Google and see what comes up..........

Flabbergasted...

inspired or just plain lazy/procrastinator

You can obviously tell which is from the BBQ i had with some cousins and the other that i've kinda made just 2 hrs ago just so i can NOT do work...sigh...

Lingering on my tongue....
the taste of the sashimi dipped in soy and wasabi....the fresh salad louis made rich in tomatoes,capsicum, bacon strips, sauteed mushrooms, lemon juice, rocket & lettuce leaves and lovely halves of hard-boiled egg to complete it....the salty buttered, crisp corn on the cob....the beautifully grilled fresh prawns...the bulgogi flavoured beef strips...finale - ing with Charmaines crunchy-on-the-outside-and-fudgy-in-its-centre brownies with cookies & cream ice cream...

what a bbq
ANYWAY, mine tasted good....? hmm....not often do i cook which is an accomplishment in itself!

Medium rare lamb cutlets - which were tenderized and flavoured in the garlic, olive oil and rosemary marinade - on top of a bed of wilted symphony of spinach es...

topped off with my mum's kick-arse fresh chilli paste which i stirred into a tangy mint sauce, that lamb was heaven....

Know you want some, dad...mum can ALWAYS cook better for you...=)Hope your headache is gone and that Sibu's hotel treats you decently...=p

and now back to reality and the realisation that holidays are drawing to a close...*meh..

No laughs at God when....

~*~

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor
No one laughs at God when the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one's laughing at God when it's gotten real late and their kid's not back from that party yet

No one laughs at God when their airplane starts to uncontrollably shake
No one's laughing at God when they see the one they love hand in hand with someone else and they hope that they're mistaken
No one laughs at God when the cops knock on their door and they say, "We've got some bad new, sir"
No one's laughing at God when there's a famine, fire or flood

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they've lost all they got and they don't know what for
No one laughs at God on the day they realize that the last sight they'll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes
No one's laughing at God when they're saying their goodbyes

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke
God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one's laughing at God in a hospital
No one's laughing at God in a war

No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
We're all laughing with God


~*~

human.
worldly ways.
the superficiality of praying/our intentions.
Your love is too prodigious.
help us to love more like You.

~*~

*no comment

you'd think that after spraining an ankle and having your torn ligament injury come back in a period of 1 month was bad enough....

1. stone covered (=Very uneven) path
2. steep downhill
2. old runners
3. hot day
4. fatigue

= sprain ankle while walking slowly might i add....

i can't even believe it myself...

using a cold orange (with its skin on ofcourse)to numb it now..lol

31 days in June

Tonight was the best decision i've made all week...lol

looking back on tonight's events...

Training back to Melbourne on the 2.28pm train was itself a long eventful trip...Sue's continuous "biting" of my arms, hilarious pictures, lame jokes, (me dozing off thus exposing me to horridious pictures- i can imagine), and ofcourse, great company Sue , Sarah and Christine!

Got checked upon by public transportation officers in the train to Glenny, walked to Sue's quaint house and changed. Both Sue and Sarah looked like they were "dressed like Zee Avi".

Now moving on to the interesting part:
eating...

Went to Petaling Jaya and we ordered respectively Tear drop noodle with minced pork and black fungi, char Kueh Tiaw and Wanton noodles while i curi-curi had the stir fry noodles from Halls last night!lol...

*ahem ahem - then Christine mentioned how hot one of the waiters looked. This catalysed a whole new debate on how Sue thought ANOTHER waiter who wasn't on duty was more hot and that the one that Christine had her eyes on was way too jock-ish. But oh well...the guy was DEFINITELY interested in her - sneaky glances at her, regular pointless walks past our table, an obvious focus on Christine when he poured us all tea - "Ladies, can i fill up your tea?" - whilst looking at Christine...
Definitely plan to come back here again to see if the guy has the nerve to ask her out..LOL

Next, we rushed to Northcote thinking that we were late...Chai - Sue's brother kindly gave us a lift there since he was going to watch Zee Avi with us! It was a full moon that night which we took as a good sign, right? RIGHT!
We did get lost for a little while and then parked a few blocks from the club BUT we ended up early anyway cause although the ticket said 7.30 start, it was actually 8 =p

OH OH OH!

While we were lining up to have out tickets checked, Zee Avi walked past! She was pretty discreet but i kinda ruined that...since Sarah, Sue, Christine and Chai didn't see her, i was frantically trying to get them to turn around to get a glimpse of her...
As she walked up the stairs to their rooms, i'm guessing, i impulsively called out to her, "Do you mind if i could take a picture with you?"
LOL
AND she replied," I'll be around after the show!" in a cheery voice...

Sarah and Sue were like "eeeeeeeeeeee.....she talked to you!"

hahaha...

Let's skip the part where we camwhored for a while after getting to sit on the floor in front of the stage (2nd row) and Sue/Christine buying merchandise from the stall set up there.

Zee Avi began with an acapella of a song which i didn't recognise - perhaps a cover or smtg...then she brough the crowd to start snapping thus bringing us to her first original song of the night, "Poppy".

Then she sang a cover song, "Slow Hands" by Interpol (which she made a joke out of based on her malaysian and internatioinal/interpool fans lol) which was hauntingly lovely...


~*~
Yeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
And I might stop and look upon your face
Disappears in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violet blaze

Can't you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, we slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself now

I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice cause the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms and grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You makes me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad of ways that I love you

Can you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
Killer for hire, you know not yourself

We spies, we slow hands
You out the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
We retire like nobody else
We spies, intimate slow hands
Killer for hire you know not yourself
We spies, intimate slow hands
You let the face slap around the self
~*~

Then she sang "Honeybee" which she mentioned was her only love song and that she's lost "it" to write more love ones..Although not one of my FAV of her songs, it was still a lovely sing along song...

"Bitter Heart" began with a chic acapella of verse one and flowing into an acoustic version. One guy in the crowd sang "of mine......" too early which made him Zee Avi's target in getting him to sing the line when the time came.Sue, Sarah and I sang the loudest that night i think....since we know her lyrics pretty well..

She introduced her next (NEW) song by sharing the origin of this song:

Her friend was telling her how she'd spent 31 days in June homeless in the US....LOL
she 'asked' if she could borrow that one liner for her song - which was about adapting to a place and about your consciousness. On the other hand, "You COULD treat this as your lover kind of thing, if you wanted to?" ~Zee Avi =)

This song was amazing...loved the plucking pattern in this song and the lyrics are really awesome as well...

Moving on to her ukulele, she announced that "Just You and Me" was the first song she wrote on a ukelele. Singing along was the BOMB! where's the fun without the sing along!

And finally ending the night with Kantoi!

This performance is WAY WAY too short.Still in awe of the whole package: the vocals, the quality of the music, the emotions - overflowing actually, the ambience and the talent shining through the uniquely written songs...

After her exit from the stage, we waited for her to come to the merchandise table where we lined up to take a picture/autograph from her...
A guy infront of Christine and Sarah was totally hitting on her,talking to her for QUITE some time and the most outrageous thing was him picking up Zee Avi's hand gently and kissing it!!!!!!! (Christine and I then saw him walking up the stairs like he was stuck to Zee Avi with glue or smtg....)

creepy stalker material...

But yeah....Matt Costa is pretty ok...atleast we got a picture with him? lol
Mr Pitiful and a few other songs were amongst my favs but yeah....=)

I miss watching Zee Avi now....=p

"*snap snap snap snap

My baby....."

Counting down to zee avi which is like in less than 24hrs!woo hoo!

Thanks to those wonderful people who introduced me to this amazing singer/song-writer from Malaysia - Miri i might add...

"Just you and me...."

~*~

Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in

I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed you had gone again

I love you more than songs can say
But i can't keep running after yesterday

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye

I hope it's not...

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

~*~

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

~*~

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity

One thing about gyming....

....is that it takes you away from all those thoughts running through your mind. (as my coursemates and I learnt today in the topic [coincidentally] "Stress" - that we take deep breaths just so to take our mind off our anxiety)

Cruising uphill through the "wind" on the treadmill, cycling on gear 2 all the way to 11 lol, some light weights, playing with the Swiss ball, using those cool weight machines, as well as trying to strengthen my core strength by bridging (not the bridging YOU were thinking of...hehe), crunching, push-up-ing and finally the most anticipated part of the workout - stretching....<3

All in one hour...

seems like a pretty joyous hour...no thoughts, just being wrapped up in the rhythm of the music, will power and determination. Don't you appreciate the satisfaction in working up a sweat, taking care of your body by giving it that adrenalin rush and motivating those usually lazy muscles towards a healthier state and perhaps giving our skin just a few more years of youthful glow and elasticity? lol

my only wish now is that my knee gets back to a state in which i'm actually capable of attending those group classes....=) and of course, when i can actually play badminton without one leg lagging behind...

Thank you Lord for this blessed day...needed one just like this...

hmmph...* i hate it when the endorphins wear off....

Ecclesiastes

3

(1)For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: (2) a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; (3)a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; (4)a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; (5)a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; (6)a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; (7)a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; (8)a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.

"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things." ~Ecclesiastes 11:5

The Perth skyline from King's Park took my breath away...

You have never been in love,
Until you’ve seen the stars,
reflect in the resevoirs

And you have never been in love,
Until you’ve seen the dawn rise,
behind the home for the blind

We are the pretty petty thieves,
And you’re standing on our street..

...where Hector was the first of the gang
with a gun in his hand
and the first to do time
the first of the gang to die. Oh my.
Hector was the first of the gang
with a gun in his hand
and the first to do time
the first of the gang to die. Oh my.

~*~

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Save me San Francisco

I can always only always JUST get that far...

~

"Just another perfect mistake,
Another bridge to take.."

Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

Doing things APART from studying like
- BOHDS minutes which i still haven't finished
- NCIS invitations which i had to deliver from like 8.30 to 10.20 (inclusive of talking and helping my dent kids out)
- eating crap
- walking to the city to get my train ticket for monday and to get my money order + stamp; ended up only getting the stamp as i didn't have enough cash to get my money order...=_="
- i had a good 60++ mins worth of walking (back and forth from Halls to the town centre plus back and forth from Halls to uni)
- RAM meeting for like 45 mins
- fbing and emailing and MORE emailing
- printing lecture notes (but not reading them)
- Grumbling about lousy internet and printing facilities at Scott Annexe
- MORE talking to people from Halls, randomly, sometimes just to catch up/get to know more new people
- shower in this freaking hot day
- wash my clothes because i had heaps of unwashed clothing
- spilling LOADS of my powdered detergent on the CARPETED floor....(looks like some drug bust happened in my room.....=p)
- folded my clothes which were in my other clothes-drying room since last week...
- writing this blog...

ALL IN LESS THAT 24 HOURS???????pretty amazing if i used that time to study.....
WHY DIDN'T I STUDY?

one thing that struck me today was

while i was walking to the post office, had this little girl running right beside me stop, look left, look left again and she was gonna run straight across the road to her family who was waiting in the car...

A car was going to turn into the road that little girl and i were going to cross...that old lady driving this huge 4-wheel drive was so sure that the girl WASN'T going to cross that she just looked right and stepped on the accelerator...

My hand instinctively shot out at the girls arm and grabbed hold of it...

Thankfully, she didn't think i was a kidnapper and no scream was evident.lol.

That forward resistance that i felt right after i held her arm scared me...

I might just be over thinking this situation but i thank God that i was His instrument in preventing such a catastrophe..

"thank you" =)

I never give you my pillow.....

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life

~

All the details in the fabric?
Are the things that make you panic?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow?
Hell, no reason, go on and scream.
If you're shocked, it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing...

~

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

~

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Golden slumbers fill your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye
Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Boy you're gonna carry that weight, carry that weight for a long time
Boy you're gonna carry that weight, carry that weight for a long time

I never give you my pillow, I only send you my invitations

And in the middle of the celebrations, I break down

Oh yeah, all right, are you gonna be in my dreams tonight?
Love you..........

And in the end, the love you take, is equal to the love, you make

Baby, baby, baby ohhh......

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

~Anna Nalick

If it kills me...

Running around like a chuke which had been caged for years...

Tons of paperwork to do but i'm still blogging, Fbing and taking every little time i have to do OTHER stuff...

Fear is my only barrier...

But anyway...

The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
~Psalm 27:1

So let's get to it...
=)

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Skinny love

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?





poignant...poetic...cuts deep..

Gentleman don't....

You run your fingers across my lips
No I've never felt like this before, no, no
Well I know I'm young but I've known love
And I'd know I know an angel if I saw one

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words...

I'm just a simple man, simple plans,
Good work, take care of my fam,
I'm sure you understand
Because you're heaven sent, independent,
Well do you think you need me?
I think I need you girl, baby can't you see?

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your words...

No no no...I won't, I won't

Cards on the table
Willing and able
Stable, capable
Of holding you down
I'm just sayin...
I'm not complainin' your love is worth waiting for

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
Now promise I wont tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words...

~Gabe Bondoc

Reflections...

obsessed with these 2 songs now....

Today was a fairy tale....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAX2UguYAPs

&

When you say...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOeuG5yH5vw&feature=channel

Anyway, it's back to uni in about 6 days..

not really looking forward to uni now that i've become a lazy pig but think i'll be catching up with reality and work soon...=p

Faith makes all things possible....love <3 makes all things easy....

So i guess loving to do something (an activity/career sort of context) it'll be a piece of cake....

Lord, i leave it all up to you.....this year will be a hectic, stressful, demanding, packed-to-the-MAX year but I know if i do it Your way, it'll be a fulfilling, glorifying, rejuvenating and inspiring heck of a journey...

love/hate holidays...

Don't you just love/hate holidays....

Love:
~meeting people you haven't met in ages/always meet anyway and meet MORE often just because we can...until we are sick of each other
~eating delightful hometown food especially if we've been down under/up there/elsewhere apart from Kch...
~spending time with family
~do nothing/just read/just watch tv/just laze without feeling as guilty as when we're supposed to be studying

Hate:
~when people you love hanging out with don't have the same holidays as you do
~at the end of the holiday when it has dawned on you (usually it's annually) that the next time we see each other might be in a year or two or three ........

drowning in all those memories...just so bittersweet

changes...the inevitable...the unstoppable....the reality...

=)/=p