I just wanna scream...

There's no where to do so...
Take a bottle...
*screams.....all locked in it...
even the bottle is small...
limited volume...
so it escapes...
causes an avalanche..
run...
not fast enough..
buried...
try to dig...
not strong enough..
suffocation...

not enough...

Emerald Dream

Augustine bought this for me...=p..
a mild yet rejuvenating scent...Thanks...need to say this more often...my dear brother...

in my mind...in my heart...inside where no one can see...only suspect,guess or perhaps assume..

in this time of confusion,frustration and self loathe...simple things like these and eye opening conversations with amazing people are what really guides me through this self inflicted time of suffering...

optimism...=p...too little...still looking for more....*glimmer of hope...hhahaha...

Gardening...

This has been going on for like 3 or 4 days already...

oh my goodness...sandy,stony,grubby...that's how my feet and arms felt after weeding out the garden...just one and a half months..that's all it takes for a weed...correction...weedS.. to grow from nothing uptill almost adrian's height...

during this...assasination of these pests, i happen to come across plenty of insects which i know would probably bring Louis to girlish screams and force him to stay at a 2 mile radius away from me just in case i had those insects crawling on me...hehhehe =) sorry lou...

here are just some of those insects...well not the first one la..

The arachnid...common house spider...=p...saw a few different types...there was one tiny red one with yellow legs...=p

Aphids....i can tell you for sure that there were MILLIONS of these in my garden..they are smaller than ants...the species in my garden that is..they don't bite or suck your blood or anything but it's really icky when they land on ur leg....*shivers..

Lady bird!!!it's co cute...hehehehe...only saw like 2 or 3...dang...
this is a stink bug...the insect i saw looked alot like this but i can't be too sure if it is this..=)

Flies as u noe are SOOOOOOO ANNOYING in the summer....

Earthworms!!!i held it on my gardening gloves a few time..=p wanted to scare my dad but...oh well..he used to be covered in ants when he went wood collecting so...=p...failed...

hahah...at the end of the day....you see a well maintained garden and for a few days you'll be thinking that it was worth it..

but reality kicks in...I forgot that weeds in Aus start infesting the garden again in about a week...in really large numbers...*sigh...

tribute..

1979 - 2008

The crew of "A Knight's Tale"...

it's sad to see this actor go...he really "went before his time"..

i first knew him from the movie "A Knight's Tale" which i think everyone must watch!not because of the guy but the movie IS GOOD...seriously!

This is the letter that he wrote to his true love in the film...it's so beautiful...

My Dearest Jocelyn,
It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.
Yours truly, the knight of your heart

This is another heart melting quote...

William : Your name lady, I still need to hear it.
Jocelyn : Sir hunter, you persist.
William : Well perhaps angels have no names, only beautiful faces.

u must watch this movie...hehehe...

Police...singing?

when i went to University of Melbourne to collect my student card and all, guess what i saw...

A band was playing in front of the library...the band consisted of members of the Victorian police force...SERIOUSLY!!=p...weird...even weirder, the band sounded pretty good!!!

i sorta recorded a minute of their music on my phone...if only i could transfer it...=p

i'm so computer illiterate..

melbourne...

well...back in melbourne...no cny in kch for me...*sigh....

i so miss kch....so so so so much....

wanna go back home...

*michael buble..Everything...

The perfect moment...

'My best friend's wedding' is a beautiful portrayal of love and sacrifice.... and these are my 2 favourite moments with one of the most romantic songs in history...=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xaVLbk_3UeU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhgiQnM1ow8&NR=1

Dream...in to reality?

Oh
I wish that
This world was one world
I wish that
Love ruled on this Earth
That everyone would try
Try to take some time to show
Some kindness
That every life would be
A life that knows
No loneliness
This is my wish

(Chorus)
And I wish that
There would be no wars
And I wish that
No one had to hurt no more
And I wish that
Everyone could see
Only love is worth fighting for
And I wish that
All of us could live
In a world where
All of us could forgive
And I know it's just a dream
But I wish this could be

I wish that
No tears would be cried
I pray that, oh
Peace comes to these times
That love would be the light
That would light our way
Through all the darkness
That all of us could find
The loves to fill
Our hearts with
That is my wish

(Chorus)

Maybe I ask too much
Maybe I shouldn't try
But only faith can take us
Through these troubled times

I wish that
Love ruled on this Earth

And I wish
(And I wish that there would be no wars)
And I wish
(And I wish that no one had to hurt no more)
And I wish
(And I wish that everyone could see only love is worth fighting for)
And I wish that
All of us could live
In a world where
All of us could forgive
And I know it's just a dream, oh
And I know it's just a dream
But I wish this could be

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sy3OwsajKws

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPOBMzMTP4U

Daily Medley...

Why you have to go and make things so complicated...

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing,
so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear

Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated,
so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment,
fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
[3x]So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Some day,
when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

Yes you're lovely,
with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely ...
Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ...
Just the way you look tonight.
Mm, Mm, Mm, Mm,
Just the way you look to-night.

Kept coming around and I fell for ya, yeah
Then as time kept going I noticed some things
Said our love kept growing
Wanted to run away cause the situation's in the past
Love never really last
Memories just had a hold of me

But I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me (let it rain)
Cause you helped me open up my eyes
Show me things I could never see (let it rain)
Cause we can fight and we make up
Wanna see you when I wake up
I'm staying with you only (let it rain)
Cause I need you to show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

I use to wonder where were going
And where I wanted to be
Sitting alone all shocked up waiting for my destiny
Hearing songs on the radio wishing that could happen to me, oh no
Then when you came into the picture then I knew quickly
That we could build something so strong
Expect the best for the future
Forget about what used to be
I need you here all life long

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've
Never been this swept away
All my thoughts seem to settle on the breeze
When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

‘Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
Suddenly I'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
The slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe

Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now
You got me feelin like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zjrv36xZ66s

I'll miss you....

My hearts racing...

i just 'let loose' two big big issues...

will this be my downfall..a disappointment...an amazing feat...the right decision?

only time will tell...

hahaha...can't believe i've started writing again...feels good to be able to fuse words and drawings in a page...

grr....i'm getting nightmares....

15th of Jan...things will change...drastically...

Pls Lord..what am i suppose to be doing now...as my parents say, wait patiently....

THAT'S what i can't seem to achieve....

=p

Rain rain go away, come again another day....

Rain rain rain....everyday is another gloomy, wet day...

despite having cool weather, it just brings sad memories sometimes, you know...like when you just lie down on your bed and you look out your window..teardrops....thousands of gallons of them are falling from the grey melancholic sky...

the seemingly light-years-away distance between friends and loved ones...occasional feeling of loneliness...times of despair...hurtful events....regrets...loses...

*sneezes...(literally sick)

the rain especially reminds me of having to go home early before cny..grr...

even passing my law test can't cheer me up...*fake smile..

Please, sun...let your rays reign supreme in the sky once again....

Happy New Year!!!

just an hour and 40 mins to go till the dawn of 2008..

2007- let's do a recap...

IT WAS SO FAST!!!!

all i can remember is studying in aus and spending some time with friends at melbourne...

the past few days have been tiresome and draining..

went for the driving seminar on sunday...stupid latecomers...made me wait an extra hour and a half before the class started...at least Mr. Ono was entertaining and created that upbeat atmosphere...the guy sitting next to me called Ibnul had been driving his motorcycle for 6 years without a license...he even drove to the seminar on his motorbike???he just got a fine and he's still driving...hehe...learnt that he's a soccer player for the past few years...and has ventured all round semenanjung during his matches...which reminds me...need to visit semenanjung...the food in Melaka, the beaches in Terengganu, the shopping in Johor...Malaysia still has plenty to offer...

This morning we went to alison's hse.akmal bought this English Trivial Pursuit...it was freakin hard!!heheh...they asked questions like " what wasthe name of 2 coins used to name the bicycle with a large front wheel and a tiny rear wheel?" the answer is 'penny farthing'...who woul.d know that????hehhee..

after he left we went to tian's hse to play bridge...now van, Siaw and Noel have been introduced to the game, the Bridge clan has expanded!hahahhaha

enough for now....

i just remembered that i have to study for my law this wednesday...500 stinking questions...

=)